Today I had lunch with a friend, had a chicken salad and water. Feeling good, laughing and joking around with friends all morning.
Got a little house work done, the sun was shining, finally.
Then I went to the post office, hidden amongst the clothing catalogs and bills was the sweetest surprise of the day!!!
A little from my friend SM!!!
Yes the one who is in jail. He seemed in good spirits, he said he loved the letters I had sent him and as he read them, he could picture me sitting on my porch, he said he could feel the breeze on his skin and the warm sun on his face.
He told me that he felt himself in the words.
I am going to see him tomorrow...I hadnt planned to, I had wanted to wait a little longer.
There is a slight possibility that he might get to come home on Friday, if the judge will reinstate his bond til his sentencing on May 17th.
This will be good for not only him, but his family, his son especially is having a hard time dealing with all of this.
But it made me feel good to hear from him and realize just how much I really do miss him and need him.
He was always the friend who I could tell any problem too and he had the perfect words, no judgement, no joking, no lecturing, just words to help me see it and understand it...that only I can fix it!!! or learn to live with it.
So, I decided I am going to visit him tomorrow, even if he does get to come home, in case he doesnt, He told me if he does get to come home he really wants to go walking with me.
I never got a chance before, no one expected he would be taken into custody before his sentencing.
But, all the same, if he gets out I cannot wait to walk with him, he was one of my earliest supporters and encouragers!!!
Today has been pretty good otherwise.
Have stayed within calorie range and even though I did enjoy a York Peppermint patty for a snack, I am not beating myself up.
I still have enough calories for a good healthy dinner and snack.
So, I feel pretty good right now.
Dreading sitting looking at my friend thru a piece of thick glass, but knowing I have to be there for him the way he has for me.
And so, I look forward to seeing him....
and I look forward to each free day I have, each day I can decide what to eat, what to wear, what time to go to bed, what time to get up, what time to enjoy the sun, go walking, watch tv, listen to music...I understand the importance of freedom and I wont take for granted.
Nor will I take for granted that I have the choice to eat healthy, to exercise, to make wise choices and to be healthy.
I cant control others around me, but i can control who I allow to affect me with their words or actions.
And I choose to be around people who build me up and want to see me succeed.
me and SM in october, 2012...