Tuesday, April 30, 2013
Things can go from great to horrible in a second .
My bf and I are taking a break a while ago we agreed that if either or is felt like things are not getting better than we need to break bc we have so much to loose.
Lately we have been fighting like nonstop it's emotionally draining and I really just wanted it to stop
I picked up all my things and brought all the things he far me back to him at the time it was just something that I did but now I know it was the right move to do so.
Looking at everything he gave me would not help me at all , I would be crying all the time and not reflect .
That's what i did Sunday night cry and wail and Monday morning cry again .
Today I can reflect .
It hurts like crazy I had a schedule and now that we have this break I have to figure out what to do with my self . Sounds stupid but it's true. I have to tell my self to reflect and see how I can better my self and our relationship .
Keeping busy is actually a bit hard .
I made breakfast today , coaches oats with peanut butter, visalus ,strawberry jam and a bit or cinnamon . Taste yummy
Going to workout in a bit , then do some laundry and finally wash my car since the rain stopped . Bad thing about a white car is the rain lol I probably will have to washy car twice
Then clean my room and go to work to turn in a direct deposit form and also my vacation request
Canceling a few vacation to take off to go to school . I decided to get my cna certs again. It's a 8 week course and windward com. College.
I wish I could just take test again but in hawaii you have to take the whole course again !
Oh well just gotta get it done as save the $1500
I wanna finish school and my field would be nursing . So on my plan to get a job as a cna and finish school and hopefully be able to move up in the company as a rn and if not at least ill have a higher paying job and one that's more flexible to work with for future family purposes
I can see now how my job now is not great for my future family plans and it's not acceptable to expect my other half to feel forced into providing for our family . Even if I didn't work fulltime my part time as a cna would make more than my job now .
My job I like it and the pay is not horrible for what I do but the flexibility is not there and I have been thinking more about family and how my job would work out and my other half his job is permanent .
I will admit I was scared of job change and I also let my weight affect decisions but now I see I just have to get it done and try .
So that's what's going on so far . Off to workout