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Tuesday, April 30, 2013

"You may have a fresh start any moment you choose, for this thing that we call "failure" is not the falling down but the staying down." Mary Pickford

I'm borrowing this quote from Coach Jen's signature line because it's exactly what I needed right now. I keep feeling like such a failure, even though I know better, intellectually speaking anyway. But here's how the story went, this time around...

I have a wedding to attend in California in a couple weeks, and when I was speaking with my daughter about all the plans, I also mentioned that I have gained SO much weight that I have no idea what I'll ever be able to wear. We both know I don't have enough money to buy new clothes, I can barely pay rent and my tooth problems, back problems, car problems, etc. have taken every dime. (My daughters have chipped in to pay for my flight and accommodations.) My daughter said to me, "Well, you've got 6 weeks, just lose the weight and wear the dress you got for the last wedding but didn't wear at the time!" Now I knew at the time that if I were to think of it that way I would only be setting myself up for failure, because I lose weight at a nearly imperceptible rate when I lose at all...but I decided to just push myself as hard as I could to see what I could accomplish anyway. You'd think I've never been down this road before, and that I couldn't have anticipated the crash and burn :sigh:.

Anyway, for the update, those short workouts saved me from giving up altogether. When I was too dizzy from the inner ear involvement (due to the tooth abscess) to complete a longer workout, I turned to the ten minute workouts on the Fit, Firm, and Fired Up DVD, or one of the shorter workouts available on SP or You Tube. I am happy to report that today I FINALLY managed to finish an entire 30 minute workout video from beginning to end, with no modifications. I'm feeling like I'm actually getting right back on track! :D

Unfortunately, I had joined two challenges, and gave up on both of those when I was stuck in my little pity bag, or temper tantrum, or whatever we call it when we just decide not to give a ... about anything anymore. So that had me really feeling as though I have failed, until I read that wonderful signature at the end of one of Coach Jen's posts:
"You may have a fresh start any moment you choose, for this thing that we call "failure" is not the falling down but the staying down." Mary Pickford

I am not staying down.
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50SGRANNY 5/5/2013 9:02AM

    Thank you all for continuing to support and encourage me; your encouragement really helps me to understand that I'm truly not alone on this journey.
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JLITT62 5/1/2013 8:15AM

    I love 10 minute exercise! It can make a huge difference. I hope you can find a dress that will make you feel special - preferably in your own closet!

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AALLEY2 4/30/2013 8:45PM

    I totally get where you are coming from! I have a potty party at least once a month! Thanks for the comment on my sp page too! emoticon

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