Tuesday, April 30, 2013
On 3/11/2012, I was prophesied over with the following statement:
Betty said: "Carmen, I heard the Lord say thereís been times you didnít even like your name. But guess what? God had your parentsí named you that for a specific reason and thereís been times you havenít liked yourself, but guess what? God has always loved you just the way you were. Donít try to change yourself to be like somebody else. God has created you uniquely and distinctly, and I just see him changing you into his image and even in a year from now you are going to look different when you look in the mirror, when people look at you, because the Word of God has been placed. The last three years as she has planted the seeds in your life, youíre going to see those seeds come to fruition and sheís going to see it in Jesus name. Amen. Hallelujah!"
I had just been commissioned a woman of God after completing a three year Bible Study series that was absolutely amazing. I had the Words, the tools, the knowledge, etc. etc., BUT I was not really using any of it or applying it to my life. I knew what to do, how to do it, BUT I was NOT doing it. About all I did is pray, "God, Change ME." I was living life my way and doing things my way, eating and drinking whatever and whenever I wanted to. I filled myself up with so many excuses, that I stopped going to Bible Study (which I loved). Months passed and nothing changed. I kept going to Church Sunday mornings, but mainly to please my husband and I knew THE KIDS NEEDED IT. I am blessed with the most amazing church based on the Word of God and that's it, Simple. The Word is the Truth. I am human. I make mistakes. I am not perfect. I try to be better, do better, live better, love better, get closer to God. Fact is, you are only as close to God as you chose to be. It's your call!
4/10/2013.......... I'm not sure why God chose this day to answer my prayer of 20+ some years to change me, but he did. I'll never forget it. I was delivered of an addiction that controlled my life for way too long (this is where the "dash" (time on Earth) seems really long to me. Some day, I may share the dash with others. I'm told, it may help others ............ when I'm ready, I will! When God's perfect timing is right.
I can't explain it to those who don't understand it, but I know there is more people out there that do understand it than people realize. One you "get it" never let it go. I can honestly look at myself in the mirror and claim that I am a different person than I was a year ago. Maybe not weight wise, but I'm getting there. i WILL get there. But God has taken away my fears, my bad habits and has filled me with the positive. I am making a promise to myself today. Never look back, unless it's to help another lost soul. I WILL BE the awesome unique person that God has created be to me. There is a reason I have not been that person in the past, BUT at 43, my life just keeps getting better. Thank you Jesus! I promise to do my best to love ALL your people as much as you love them too. It's going to take a lot of help, BUT I will do MY BEST!
The last part of 2 Timothy 2:2, "commit this to faithful men (and women) that they shall be able to teach each others also."