Tuesday, April 30, 2013
Today is one of those days where I busted out one of my special pumpkin spice keurig cups to get me going in the morning. Another dark rainy day! Anyone else just want to curl up with tons of blankets and a book on days like today? I really struggle to wake up and feel invigorated lol. Anyone? Just me?
Things are getting really busy at work. I like it, no complaints there, and it is helping me not snack so much. But it does make me a bit more tired and stressed out on top of all of the outside stuff going on. Iím trying to manage it in healthy ways. Iíve got gym time booked for each day the rest of this week and a new recipe for from-scratch roasted red pepper soup on the menu for dinner tonight. My lunch and snacks are packed. I have a very odd urge to go shoppingÖ itís like my stress knows I planned out everything else so itís trying to find any outlet it can? Hah.
I had my annual doctorís visit yesterday. I know, I feel like I am always at the doctorís these days. I paid $200 out of pocket yesterday for the doctor. I canít afford any more stinking doctorís appointments! But they are a necessity, right? Especially when they help you. Iím actually really glad that I had this yesterday because the timing was right.
My thyroid, unfortunately, is out of whack. I have to go get half the blood drawn out of my body to prove it, but I knew it inside and my doctor confirmed it yesterday. This thyroid thing is SO HARD to talk to people about, because I feel like everyone thinks I am crazy. It does affect me more than it should. It is hard to describe to people how off I feel most days, and itís an internal only disease, so what people can and canít see isnít always clear. Iím constantly tired, I canít lose any weight, I have been feeling increasingly foggy lately and waking up in the middle of the night out of the blue with sweats/panic. What people see outside is a sleepy, sort of mumbling, overweight person. I sort of forget about the thyroid stuff until it gets too much to ignore, when it rears its ugly head like it is doing right now. The good thing is that once I grow a pair and get my blood drawn, we will be able to address it and hopefully get it back in line.
The other thing that came up yesterday was about my tummy. Since I recently had three rounds of antibiotics in two months, my tummy is like all kinds of messed up. It is getting inflamed and causing me a TON of discomfort. It is embarrassing! My doctor suggested going gluten free for a while, as they believe gluten inflames the gut as well. I know I could stand to cut carbs, but I guess I feel like I donít know enough about the gluten stuff to confidently quit it right now. She suggested doing some research and going to Wegmans and standing in the gluten free aisle to check everything out. Anyone have any resources or helpful information on going gluten free? Do you think I could go gluten free like Monday-Friday or like 80/20? Iím always hesitant to go black and white off a food because my brain has a hard time with it.
I know I am getting back into the groove and want to help my body out as much as possible. I saw some older people at the doctorís office yesterday and they reminded me of how important it is to take care of myself. I also really want to feel like ME again. Slowly but surely, I think it is coming back. Dare I say my pants are a little looser today too?!
Last weekend I finally got back outside for a walk/jog (aka WOG). It was 70 degrees and sunny, I just HAD to be outside, and my boyfriend suggested taking it the next step. Youíd be surprised, I actually put up a bit of a fight. Iím scared to get back into jogging, walking is fine. Not sure why my brain canít get over that. We compromised that weíd only run downhill or straightaways (our neighborhood has some CRAZY uphills that scare me). We started off really strong and then about halfway through, my tummy was just like Ė no. At this point weíre like in the woods and nowhere near a ďresting placeĒ so we had to take it easy to walk the rest of the way home. We did five miles in an hour with the slower pace, but point being Ė we moved five miles outdoors on a gorgeous Saturday morning. Last night at dinner my boyfriend said that was his favorite part of the weekend and how good it felt and I had to agree. I think weíll be doing it more often! Thank goodness for springtime!
So that is what is up with me these days! Busted thyroid & tummy, leaning towards gluten free, and getting back in the groove. Boom!