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Caught in the same trap as 25 lbs ago...

Tuesday, April 30, 2013

After I hit my peak weight in August 2007, I made changes to my diet and took a pilates class at school. In a semester I dropped about 15 pounds, where I plateaued until 2009 when I took off the remaining 35 pounds. During that plateau I convinced myself that this was all the weight I could lose, that my body was meant to be in the 170s, whether I liked it or not.

Fast forward to April 2013, where I've been fluctuating around 150-155 for the better part of a year, reaching as high as 157 and as low as 147, but still outside my maintenance range of 139-144 and my goal of getting under 139. I trained for two triathlons, a half, and a full marathon last year without dropping under 150. Despite my generally healthy eating habits and regular exercise, my body is holding onto the pounds my brain is trying to take off. Maybe I'm meant to be at this weight instead of my goal.

That's what I tell myself, but I know it's not true. I'm using my triathlon training as an excuse to indulge my sweet tooth, even on rest days. Even though I've done the hard work before, and 15 pounds is not 50, I don't want to push myself out of my comfort zone again, even temporarily to get to my goal weight. Since my overall habits are healthier than they were four years ago, I know the weight isn't going to slide off overnight, but I have to be honest with myself, track my food and workouts accurately, and make the good decisions I know I can make, but don't want to do because it's "not so bad" being "only" 15 pounds above the goal I worked so hard to achieve once before. I'm very aware of my tendencies and weaknesses, now I just have to make my resistance stronger.
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    I hit my goal weight 2.5 years ago and kept it off for a year while I raced - 3 half marathons, 2 sprint triathlons, and a few other races. Then, the racing slowed down, I stopped tracking, and the weight started coming back on. Now, I've had multiple 'injuries' and I haven't been able to run. And, it's now summer and hard to find the time to do things with my daughter home from school.

    But, I CAN do this. Last time, I was looking at almost 30 pounds to lose. This time? "Only" 15. Yes, in some ways it's harder when you see the smaller number. It just doesn't seem as necessary or something.

    But, I also know how it felt to be a size 8 (where now I'm back to a size 12). I felt much more confident and attractive. Shopping was a pleasure, instead of something to dread.

    So, I'm back to tracking food. And, I will go to the doctor and get my foot checked out. And, I will start doing my physical therapy again. I WANT to run again. I'd love to train for a triathlon again. I just have to make it happen!

    Best wishes to you as you lose those last pounds! Actually, I guess this blog is from about 7 weeks ago, so maybe you've lost some of them? I hope you are doing terrific! I know you are doing great on your races!
    1734 days ago
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