Tuesday, April 30, 2013
I honestly am to the point of giving up! I feel like I spend more time getting back on track only to fall off again! Why do I sabatoge myself? Why can't I stay motivated? Why do I let life get in the way? Why do I care so much about other people and their success, but I don't care enough about my own? I have been asking myself these questions a lot lately. I don't really know the answers. Things have been so crazy, and out of control the last few months, and I have been dealing with some stress at work, that just when I think I am back on track BAM life smacks me in the face again. Then I lose myself in food, start feeling guilty, get back on track, only to be right back where I was. I know my big issue is that I am an emotional eater. I let things get to me too easily, and then I cave to temptations. I recently ordered some books off Amazon for emotional eating, I just need to find the time to sit down and start reading and working thru this issue, one day at a time. I just need to work on ME for once! I know that I am worth it, but some days I don't feel like I am.