Monday, April 29, 2013
So I've been pretty good at eating clean for almost a year now. Every now and then, I'll make an exception and have some cakes, cookies, & ice cream, because, well hey, I'm not a Monk!
One of the great things I've noticed since eating clean and not partaking in junk carbs especially, is how my appetite has stabilized....I pretty much eat only when I'm hungry and stop eating when I'm not hungry....what a concept.
I also know that with certain foods (for me it's carbs) I don't stop eating them...even when I "feel" full. When I eat veggies & proteins, something kicks in to my brain that says, "Stop, you're full"
But when I start eating bread (fresh, hot out of the oven bread, with some butter melting into all the crevices....Ahhhhh heaven), or brownies (worse than potato chips, can't eat just one!), or soft, chewy cookies, generously overflowing with chocolate chips (big hunks of dark chocolate), well I'm all in.
So I do best by just saying "NO"....and it's usually been pretty easy, especially once I got over the daily overload I had been so used to for years.
Today, my secretary, a wonderful woman, worth her weight in gold, who saves my bacon on a daily basis, brings in a batch of Reese's Peanut Butter Cup cookies...soft baked cookies with a mini peanut butter cup baked right into them....still warm in their Tupperware container.
Apparently today was the last day of a 20-something front office intern/assistant and so she thought it would be nice to bring in some snacks....4 big fat Tupperware containers filled with these evil cookies.
Throughout the year, I've survived her Christmas holiday baking (chocolate peppermint snaps, Heath bar crunch brownies, chocolate almond brittle), her Thanksgiving desserts (Pecan Pie and Red Velvet Cakes), even her occasional "I just felt like baking this weekend" Monday surprise....each time I would just walk to the coffee bar, fill my mug with Joe, give a disapproving glance at her latest offering of baked goods, and walk back into my office chiding her for once again giving in to her evil desires to bake, bake, bake, and bake!
So I don't know why today, of all these times of just saying no, I just said, "sure, what the hell", grabbed 2 and chomped them down....then grabbed 2 more and took them back to my office....then 10 minutes later, on the pretense of sending a report back to her for corrections, I grabbed 2 more.
I was hooked...I am hooked....I'm a junkie and I know it....I'm not like normal people, I can't have just one and be done with it....carbs breed the desire for more carbs in my brain and in my body.
Thankfully I broke the cycle by breaking open my lunch bag and eating the grilled chicken breasts SWMBO made this weekend. (OK, so later in the afternoon I had 2 more of the peanut butter cup beasts.....the last two I must say and that put an end to the frenzy.) Finally, I drank my protein shake, then went to the gym to lift (heavy chest & shoulders today....I needed that after the extra 800 calories of frenzied snacking)
As always, it's a good reminder for me...I know my triggers, I know my habits, I know that the best path for me is to not cross the bridge that has dragons on the other side....I only get burned when I do!
Have a great night Spark friends!