Monday, April 29, 2013
Just a few weeks ago I decided I had to look at losing some weight. I mean really, it was a problem--I couldn't face my reflection, I couldn't buy clothes, I couldn't stand myself and I felt ashamed.
How had it come to this?? The same it happens to lots of people I imagine. I didn't move enough. I ate too much. I denied myself nothing. I was lazy. I thought immediate gratification was gratification enough. Well that is going to change, I thought, and then I did the math HOLY COW, that is too much for me to change, I will NEVER EVER DO IT. perhaps you have heard your inner critic yelling the same things to you. Defeated before I even started --break out the bon bons momma needs some feel me good sugar
But then an epiphany
What if I JUST STAY WITH THIS LONG ENOUGH TO LOSE FOUR POUNDS. Why four? Well it just made a nice round number on the scale and four pounds is do able. Its easy, anyone can do it. I decided to exercise and eat less only until I lost four pounds and then I could reassess and figure out how I feel about it.
Off I went. It took longer than I thought. It was harder than I thought. I moved more. I ate less. I was sometimes hungry or at least peckish. I sweated a bit. I don't like sweating. Its okay, I am still alive. I lost four pounds, time to reassess..... well it wasn't that bad and I feel really good, I have all that healthy food in the house I better not waste it, my points are racking up and that's fun, okay I'll stick to it for another 4 pounds. That is the only commitment. I cant stop until I lose 4 pounds. I can't decide after 3 that I am not going to do this anymore, I can decide after 4. Oh boy there goes another 4...now what? I guess it wasn't that bad, I'll stick it out for another 4.......