Monday, April 29, 2013
Day 4 is going pretty well and i seem to hate the world a little less in spite of it being a Monday. I'm still patting myself on the back for how the timing worked out. The weekend was just what I needed to get through days 2 and 3. I've heard days 4 and 5 are the worst. And also 2 and 3 are the worst. What do you other juice fasters think? I honestly don't know. It's all kind of the same.
I have great moments and crappy moments each day. I've noticed that when I start feeling crappy, it means I need to drink more juice. I don't actually like drinking the juice though so part of me rebels against it or whatever. But once I get through it, I feel ok for awhile. I have no idea how much I'm drinking. I've never been good at keeping track of things but I'm pretty sure it's not enough. It's tricky to get enough. I've had some smoothies too because its kind of easier. I don't know how I feel about that. I don't other people are doing the fast using smoothies but it sorta feels like cheating. You're still digesting. So what's the benefit? No really, I'm asking. Not judging. I hate when things aren't black and white and this is a huge grey area for me. What's the best way? And don't say whatever works for me because that doesn't compute in my brain. All I know is smoothies are more economical cuz you're not blowing through as much produce. And it's easier to stick chia seeds and protein powder and almond milk in there to get a little fuller. But is it the best way? Or what's the drawback of doing that? I really don't know.
Anyway, I'm down about 4lbs. I definitely feel less bloated and gross. I can't wait till there's a 15something on the scale. At this rate, that will be about 4 more days which feels like a long time so I'm not focusing on that. I haven't been horribly tempted yet. There's moments and hunger pangs but I'm able to redirect my thoughts pretty easily. Even last night, Chris was making a pretty tempting dinner and I started to feel the pangs of regret that I couldn't eat it but I just stayed in the living room and watched tv and drank my herbal tea. And it was fine. Then after that he made me some watermelon, cucumber, mint juice which was delicious. He really is the best. Not to get all schmoopy but I'm so so so so so lucky to have my husband. He is the most selfless person I know.
So I keep telling myself just because its hard doesnt mean I need to quit. And how good it will feel to actually make some progress as opposed to just going round in circles like I've been doing. And how much I just want to accomplish a goal. To push myself and not give in and quit. If I could lose 15 or 20lbs doing this, that would be amazing. And it's completely possible. And I'm just trying not to think of it in terms of what I'm giving up, but that this is helping me become the kind of person I want to be. It doesn't mean I'll never eat pasta again. It's just helping me break the hold pasta has over me so that I can have a healthy moderate relationship with food in the future. Right?
I still don't completely know how to transition off the fast. Like I'm really interested in people who have done an extended juice fast and kept the weight off long term. There's tons of people that blog while they are on it and I've encountered a few that have updated after and gained all the weight back. But I haven't found too many examples of people who have kept the weight off or how they ate after the fast. I know it's not a quick fix. I know you can't break the fast and go back to cheese burgers. But what do you do to be successful? I want to get to the point where I'm in maintenance and can eat primarily plant based but everything in moderation. i dont think its unrealistic is it? i mean i know the general school of thought is whatever you do to lose weight is something you should feel comfortable doing long term and obviously i dont want to juice fast for the rest of my life but i do want to incorporate juice and juicing long term. and i do think that my eating habits have evolved quite a bit and that Im on my way to figuring out what will work for me long term. this is just a kickstart. does that make sense? But id still really like to know how other people are being successful with it so point me in the direction of some success stories please!
I haven't really noticed any detox symptoms except the headache but I think that's more carb withdrawal than anything else. I do have some tingly ness in my legs. I remember the other times I juiced I had like a dull ache in my legs. This is more of a tingle. Weird. I hope I get some more energy soon. I really want to get active. I'm debating about doing some walking or yoga after work. I don't want to push too much too soon and the energy thing is still pretty moment to moment. I'm afraid of thinking I'm up to something and then like going to yoga and realizing I don't have the strength yet. And tomorrow is the ominous day 5 where I've quit both other times. I don't want to throw myself off.
Anyway, that's me on day 4.