I want to break free!!
Monday, April 29, 2013
Sing it with me now, you know the one by Queen! 'I've got to break free!'
And I did. Last night at my movie club (a subsidiary of the book club) I announced I would no longer be attending the book club because I don't want to be around the founder anymore. She has become very weird and I discovered that everybody else has had the same experience. My true friends were supportive and told me how to extricate myself graciously. I wrote a short email stating that I would no longer be attending book club because my world is just too busy. The truth is I realized just how weird things were last wednesday. My mother warned me about this, she told me that this was a sick and weird person. I gave this person 5 years of chances. I'm done. I'm still a little afraid that she will poison my relationships with my true friends or worse show up at my job. I can't believe
I did this to myself, I actually stayed because I was afraid she would throw a
tantrum. Well, thats the behavior of an abuse victim, I'm not playing that role any longer.
You know what I did to celebrate? I went for a run this morning!!
And I weighed in, even though I knew my weight would be up. I took Oprah's advice and stood in my truth. I found not a weight on my shoulders but rather strength in knowing my truth. I am ready to move on in every aspect of my life. I enjoy my new job with my Dad. I am enjoying my exercise. I discovered after a homemade milk shake- I don't really like them anymore. It wasn't as much fun as it used to be. (don't worry it wasn't huge.) I just don't find myself in those anymore. Thats not my source of happy. Its the road now. OMG!!!! Even though I'm working the c25k program again does this mean that I am a runner??????