Monday, April 29, 2013
My mail comes at 4pm and I am in anticipation to hear from the State about the review for my SSD. I am fighting off a lot of anxiety because of the wait for the mail today. So far I have taken my as needed medications, listened to music to try and calm down, lit the candle my sister gave me for my birthday and did some breathing exercises. So far these have been helping to avoid an anxiety attack. One more thing I plan on doing after posting this blog is to go for a walk to relax.
Each day it is a battle to stay calm while waiting for the mail. The State, when they wanted information, gave me ten days to respond. I completed the forms the night I received them in the mail. It took me 4 hours when the directions said it would take 1 hour. I was sweating so bad that even my hands were sweating so I had to keep drying them off.
It has now been six weeks of waiting. All I want is to hear from the State. If it is a positive response great, if it is negative I can then take steps to appeal the review. It is just this waiting for them to respond in such an untimely manner that is causing the anxiety. I just want it to end.