Monday, April 29, 2013
This is not going to be one of my most inspirational blogs. Today I feel defeated. I really let myself down this weekend and the scale said 204.4 this morning.
I actually ate every meal at home, but I guess I ate too much of it? I had a beer and a big glass of wine on Friday, 3 32 oz beers at a football game on Saturday, and a whole frozen pizza w/ like a cup of cheese added to it (but the pizza itsself was only 750 calories). I also didn't do a long run when I absolutely should have. 10 miles, is what I have to look foreword to tonight- at the GYM because it's raining all week.
So I don't know where 4 pounds came from- I think about 2 may be water weight, but still I believe I will have a gain on my hands come W.I. on Wednesday. Seriously- another one. I really do want to give up right now! Don't worry, I won't. I'll settle for being a grumpy beast all day, not talk to anyone and probably struggle through 10 miles on the hampster wheel at the gym, head home, nom a couple tacos and give Josh the grump face all night.
Today I eat right, and if I need a snack to tide me over I must eat the 2 fruits I have here. Then I get to the gym and even if it takes 3 hours, run 10 miles and burn 1300 calories! Then go home feeling accomplished, eat some tacos and find something to do with myself for the rest of the night. Which will probably involve a hot shower and a bit of reading or netflixing Gossip Girl (almost half way through season 5!)
Then tomorrow I wake up sore as heck and eat even better at work since It will be a rest day. Then take it easy at happy hour with my friend, maybe go for a walk if it's not pouring, and enjoy my pork tenderloin, carrots and baby reds.
Then Wednesday morning perhaps my body will reward me for my efforts.
I also have a 12 mile run on Saturday (or Friday evening if I'm ambitious). Then after that long azz run it will all be downhill from there.
And that makes me a bit more motivated. Only 2.5 weeks until the big day. I know that I will be able to finish, but I hope I will be able to finish in under 2.5 hours. I did 11.5 mi in 2:07 min so that should be a possibility.
As awesome as it sounds to be running so much and beating my goals- there are many things I won't miss about training for a half marathon:
The 2 hour workouts after work
Not eating dinner until 7 p.m.
Chafing on my chest/back from bra and pants rubbing
Will be VERY ready to cut my hair
Not NEEDING to work out on the weekends- but choosing to
Worrying about how my eating the day before a run will effect it.
Missing scheduled runs and feeling terribly guilty
Only running as a workout because doing ST leaves me too sore to run
Being so tired after a long run that the rest of the day is shot unless it involves couch.
post-run stomach cramps
That's about all the complaining I can think of now...
I am ready to really dig into cross training, intervals, strength training and building my muscles back up. I know that will help me lose weight even faster. Enough of this 200's bullsh!t.
2 weeks after the half I have a 10K, and after that I will take a definite break from loooong runs.
But I still have the hump of this weekend's 12 mile run, after that- it's all downhill! Bring it... But until it's all over I want to exceed my own expectations.
Wish me luck.