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You Feel Joy, You Feel Pain 'Cause Nothing Will Be the Same

Monday, April 29, 2013

This peppy song is a part of my 5K playlist. I don't listen to this playlist unless I am running, and we ran a 5K on Saturday so it came up.

It is one of those songs that gets me moving, and it's set at a time during 5Ks when I am not at the start and not at the end, and the runners have spread out and sometimes I wonder what the heck it is I am doing there, and why I do a dozen of these every year. This year, it was even more meaningful, as this was our first race since the tragedy at the Marathon.

It was a charity event, for PKU awareness. If you've ever read the fine print on a sweetener packet, you've likely seen the phrase: phenylketonurics: contains phenylalanine. That's a substance that these folks can't metabolize. Intaking it will (eventually, as it builds up over time) kill them. It is a genetic disorder. I don't know anyone who has it. But it's of course an area where people could use support, so we ran.

And I heard that song, as I was huffing along, and had the same old conversation in my head -

Why are you doing this?
Wouldn't you rather spend your Saturday sleeping in?
Or, better yet, going out for brunch?
Pancakes sound nice.
You haven't had pancakes in a while.
Ooohh ... pancakes.

And then I remind myself that, if I am ever going to see a pancake again, I still need to finish the race. So I continue plodding along.

This time, I found myself getting bad fatigue and shin pain when I could see the finish. And that's always ironic - I like to pour it on at the end, and my body was telling me not to.

And then I remembered that there are people who, 2 weeks ago, lost their ability to run or even walk or stand, without help.

So I said, what the hell and I ran anyway.

My hips hurt today, 2 days later. My shins are on and off wonky. Advil is only working sporadically.

But I don't care.

We spend so much of our lives trying to avoid pain. And it is normal and natural to do that. After all, even the tiniest of animals will move away from negative stimuli. It seems foolish, unless you're some sort of masochist (and I am not, in case you were wondering), to go in the direction of pain, and do things, repeatedly, that hurt. Repeatedly.

But as I think about this, and I grab another pair of Advil, I am again reminded that I have shins at all.

So who the hell cares if they hurt a little?

I feel both joy and pain today.

But I feel more joy than I do pain.

Come join me for joy and pain this Saturday. It'll be my 40th 5K. :)
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    Thanks for the reminder. I have aches and pains, but you're right, I can run. So I will, and will just pop the Ibuprofen!

    1778 days ago
    You truly inspire me. I know you don't think that you do - but you do.

    Not sure what I'll be doing Saturday, we're currently in Singapore - but I'll think of you on your 40th 5K.
    1785 days ago
    Here's to #40...the joy and the pain.
    1785 days ago
    Good thoughts. Without pain, we wouldn't know how good joy is. Congratulations on #40!
    1785 days ago
  • CDCSMITH2013
    You are totally my inspiration for my 5K in June (assuming my PT guy give the okay).
    1785 days ago
  • QUAIL75
    Wow! Your 40th 5K?! That amazing and so motivating! emoticon I'm doing my second in June and I will run it for those who can't.

    I love that song! I haven't heard it in a long time and it brings back great memories. emoticon

    1785 days ago
    Wow! #40! emoticon
    1785 days ago
    emoticon 40 - 5Ks So very awesome. I just think it is so great.
    1785 days ago
    OUCH to your shin pain! I have my one & only annual 5K @ the Binghamton Bridge Run this coming Sunday. Have been out doing some practice jogs and am gearing up for it. Not my thing, but I like committing myself to at least this one 5K a year to mix things up. I like to pour it on at the end too. Doubt I'm going to do as well this year as others...have had a consistent 11 min. mile speed demon, and slowing a bit: But we're OUT THERE and DOING IT! Yeah!

    Cool song...hadn't heard before. Thx for the tip! :-)

    1785 days ago
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