21 days to search for my inner happiness
Monday, April 29, 2013
So, we have 21 days until our vacation at Vero Beach, FL. This is the first beach vacation for me since I was in High School....amazing the lengths I would go to, to avoid a bathing suit....At any rate, I am surprised to find that even though I have lost the weight I wanted to, I am still not satisfied with myself....when will I find happiness with my body? I find myself still scrutinizing myself...I need to tone my thighs, my arms, my stomach....shouldnt I just be happy with how well I've done so far? Yes I should! I fit into jeans sizes I havent seen in years! I know we all have our trouble spot, and there is nothing wrong with working on them...but I need to find my inner happiness with myself....I need to make sure I am working out for my happiness on the inside, not to stress about my outside apperance. I need to watch what I eat, so that I am not putting crap in my body, not to stress about where each bite will land on my body if I dont.... So for 21 days, I am going to workout for happiness, and really focus on my inner self...If I dont, I know that the whole time on vacation I will not be focusing on making memories with my family, but worrying about how I look on the beach....thats just silly! I started out really good this morning with a shortened workout.. I've been sick, and I just couldnt do it all....but its a good start. I also had a fabulous high protein breakfast....just what I need to jumpstart me back to a healthy lifestyle.....Focusing on health. Reminding myself at how far I have come and find the positives about myself should help. I do want to feel fabulous about how I look, but I need to feel fabulous on the inside first!