Monday, April 29, 2013
So, we have 21 days until our vacation at Vero Beach, FL. This is the first beach vacation for me since I was in High School....amazing the lengths I would go to, to avoid a bathing suit....At any rate, I am surprised to find that even though I have lost the weight I wanted to, I am still not satisfied with myself....when will I find happiness with my body? I find myself still scrutinizing myself...I need to tone my thighs, my arms, my stomach....shouldnt I just be happy with how well I've done so far? Yes I should! I fit into jeans sizes I havent seen in years! I know we all have our trouble spot, and there is nothing wrong with working on them...but I need to find my inner happiness with myself....I need to make sure I am working out for my happiness on the inside, not to stress about my outside apperance. I need to watch what I eat, so that I am not putting crap in my body, not to stress about where each bite will land on my body if I dont.... So for 21 days, I am going to workout for happiness, and really focus on my inner self...If I dont, I know that the whole time on vacation I will not be focusing on making memories with my family, but worrying about how I look on the beach....thats just silly! I started out really good this morning with a shortened workout.. I've been sick, and I just couldnt do it all....but its a good start. I also had a fabulous high protein breakfast....just what I need to jumpstart me back to a healthy lifestyle.....Focusing on health. Reminding myself at how far I have come and find the positives about myself should help. I do want to feel fabulous about how I look, but I need to feel fabulous on the inside first!