First off, thank you so much for the overwhelming support of my engagement/half marathon blog. I never ceased to be amazed by the loving, supportive community that is SparkPeople.
Secondly, if you've been watching my weight ticker, I want to apologize. To you, and to myself.
I'm sorry that in times of stress I reverted to a few old habits and am now 15 pounds up from my lowest weight since joining SparkPeople. I'm sorry that I keep making excuses to start "after graduation" or "after I finish my paper" or "after I find a job." I've written many "Back on the Wagon" blogs, but I never truly jumped back on.
I would track my breakfast and then go out to eat for lunch and eat whatever JD was eating for dinner. This is not how I lost 91 pounds. I lost 91 pounds by tracking everything, drinking tons of water, and exercising 5x a week. I lost 91 pounds by passing up the McDonalds drive through, saying no to that pizza in class, and walking to class rather than driving.
And in the past few months, I just haven't had the motivation to do this. Well, I finally completed my 45 page seminar paper required for graduation. My advisor has to read it and give me final edits, but it's done. I graduate on Friday, and will start spending every day looking for a job.
Not to mention, I have a wedding to plan. And I want to be the happiest, healthiest bride I can be, even if it is 19 months away.
So I'm stopping this tailspin, TODAY. I'm 197.6 lbs today. And I REFUSE to get back into the 200s. It's time to refocus, and realize that regardless of what else is going on in my life, my health is the most important thing I can focus on.
Thank you for never giving up on me, SparkFriends. While I try and hold myself accountable, it truly is all of you, supporting me and reminding me that I can do this, that keep me going.