Monday, April 29, 2013
Without my 2 days of despair & months of it I would not be here this beautiful Monday morning. I would still be sulking & refusing to see the best I could have if I only reached out for it. I did reach out for it, the 2 days of a trying time made me see it. I had worse days but who would ever guess a bad hair day made me see what I was missing & how it all led up to my change I was not doing well at all with my eating or any sort of working out. I blamed it on my back, I just could not get going I am now wearing a Tens Unit to get charged up for the day & to use throughout my day. that was a real good excuse. Even though in the corridors of my mind I would let the thought seep out " get up you know you feel better when you do" but I can't I have bone spurs all the way down my back bone that are hitting on nerves . This argument went on & on.
I had taken 5 days off for a vacation from everything from work & life itself. I thought I was going to curl up on my recliner & gaze out the window for 5 days.This is what has transpired since. Thursday first day off from work. I woke up went right to my chair & sat gazing out the window as planned. I began to really think what happened to me to get here, I did not like my thinking , I did not like my appearance. I thought i need to get my hair colored maybe that will make me feel better. I went to the hair dresser & told her I want my hair a dark brown ( I have very light brown hair, at the same time I told her I had a lot of natural red in my hair & she would need to put an ash on my hair first so the red would not come through (as when colored can show orange from the dye. )She proceeded to take a bottle dye goop & dumped it on my hair & smushed it all around. I sat there in horror as I always had foils. I sat all rolled up in perm rods scared to death of what would appear in the mirrow. When the half hour was up & I went to the chair & looked in the mirror I screamed in side. There IT was the RED, not light brown either almost black was sick about it. I slowly drove home,upon arrival my husband just stared at me knowing not to say a word because he could see & hear how upset I was. The next morning I said we must talk. I ask him what he thought of my hair, his reply what do you think ? I said I ask you first, he said if I tell you do not get mad. He told me Judy your hair looks like a box sitting on your head square on top & just hanging down & the color is awful. I thanked Gary & gave him a big hug for being honest with me.I called the Spa ( one I went to before ) & told them of my dilemma, I told them my husband said my hair also looked boxy . Upon arrival at the Spa when I walked in ,I said I am the boxy one, WOW what a good laugh we all had. she redid it with the ash color put my hair a light brown with a few high lights sprinkled through out. she trimmed it up so now t does not look like a box on my head!!!!! I ask about a spray tan which I never had, the next day they got me in for that. I was scared & thought I would come out like a streaked zebra instead of black strips I would be orange. I was reassured they never had that happen. WOW I could not believe it when I saw my self in mirror, I loved it. she ask if I was going to a wedding I told her no this was just for me. MY HUSBAND LIkED MY KNEW COLOR, CUT & TAN!!!! YIPPY SKIPPY!!!
Saturday morning I pulled weeds & planted a load of different pansies. I shampooed my carpets, I went to market & bought a load of fresh vegetables, & put them on a slow roast for 6 hours so I could have them through out the week. I did house work not begrudgingly. Sunday morning I got up real early went on a 2 mile walk. I always walk the same path, this time I went some where totally different. A knew scenery. Later that evening I went on another 2 mile walk so far 4 mile walk yesterday . As I was digging in the dirt yesterday with more planting I thought I feel so good & I have one more day of vacation. I would normally say when I have one day I wish it was starting over. Not this time even as good as I felt with my thoughts because the 2 days I had that all went wrong, made me see a lot about myself. I had time to think what I was really doing to myself which is so negative in my thinking I wasn't changing I was getting deeper & deeper into darkness & not coming out to the sunshine in my life. The bad changed my thinking I would not trade Thursday & Friday for any thing. It was not just the bad hair day but it really got me thinking about everything else in my life.I did a lot of searching with in me. I know there will be days that I will have a struggle after all this is not heaven & obstacles will come trying to block my path, I can kick them to the curb & find my way around them . I can & will approach them differently !! Have a great week every one, don't forget kick the obstacles to the curb the challenge is finding a knew path to get around them !!!!!!