Monday, April 29, 2013
Breakfast: McDonald's egg white delight w/o butter or cheese
Lunch: Red Robin Ensenada platter with 1 chicken breast, no cheese and all sauces on the side and a fruit cup.
Dinner: a cup of chicken shwarma and a breadstick
Starbucks break: Grande nonfat chai
Housewarming party: one small piece of thin crust pizza and two dark chocolate squares. One 60% and the other 72%
This morning was so hard to get up and get out of bed as I was still super tired, but I got up and decided I was going to wear my dress I wore for the murder mystery since I feel so good in it and I had a solo I choir today. I got to church to help dad set things up before church and my mom says to me "(gasp!) I have something to tell you and you're not going to like it!" Of course I'm instantly worries. So then she tells me that she can clearly see my polka dot bra through the white stripes on my dress. :( So I look down, and sure enough, it's clear as day. :( So, I had to run home and change my bra, thankfully I live 5 minutes away, 3 if I get a green light.lol I got back to church and I began to get super nervous about my solo. I can sing fine with a group or without a microphone in my hand, but as soon as you mic me, I freak out. I was sweating so bad and my legs were jello, but I made it through the song without any mistakes and without running out of breath on my holds.lol After church we went to Red Robin. I really wanted to get a burger of some type, even if it was a veggie burger, but I was being rushed so I couldn't check my red robin calorie app fast enough so I just went with what I knew. After lunch I went home and took an hour nap on the couch before choir. After choir I went to Starbucks and then church. Church tonight was so good too. Aimee spoke tonight about storms in our life and how God is with us even when we feel like we're drowning, we just need to trust him and have faith. It was so good to hear that though because things with James just hurt right now. I don't think he realizes he is doing things that is leading me on. He looks at so many girls at our church as just his sister in Christ, which is fine, but then he treats me slightly differently. Or he'll say things to me that he won't tell anyone else. Or tonight, our friend Patrick wanted to have everyone over to his new house. I was there already and James was on his way. He called me to see if we needed anything. Why not call Patrick? He was roommates with Patrick 3 days ago, why call me!? Or when he asked if we needed anything, Aimee said chocolate so I told James and he asked what kind. This may sound silly, but if anyone else had asked him to get chocolate, he would say no, but I asked him to, so he got some...and he got the good stuff too. Then Josh had brought our bunnies tonight so he brought them into Patrick's house. I was holding one for a while and then put him back in the box. Immediately James said he wanted it, so I got it out and gave it to him. Then he was sitting next to me so I was petting the bunny and he was like "You want it back don't you?" I laughed and said "maybe." So he gave it back to me, but just kept watching me and the bunny. James just confuses me. I mean, I just don't know what to do and I'm starting to wonder, at what point do I say "forget this, I'm moving south and I'll find me a good southern man." Lol ugh, I'm sorry to spill all that. I know you are tired of hearing me talk about him, but I just want my friend back in a way that I don't feel like I'm just going to keep hurting myself whenever I'm around him. :( Oh well. Here's the bunny I held tonight :)