Monday, April 29, 2013
I have been in a highly stressed depression, all weekend. Can't help it ... tried. I am so anxious to speak with my Doctors! My fault. They have tried to get in touch with me; they, even, emailed me ... an email that I ignored until Saturday, when I decided to look at it. I had some blood tests on April 22. The result for my Sed Rate was not so good. The maximum normal number for a Sed Rate, for a female, is 30. Mine is super, super high, 89; which means there is a chance that my Autoimmune Disease is very active, or something else, just as bad. Yes, I am scared; and very unhappy. I have avoided in speaking to, or seeing, anyone, this whole weekend. Trust me, not very good company. I have, even, been yelling at my dog, to leave me alone; and he was only trying to let me know that he had to go out, etc ... just being a dog. I have to make it all up to him, after I know something; and, hopefully, can relax. My hopes have been dashed; yet, once, again. It is all in God's hand. Yet, I am praying hard!