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Learning to Walk All Over Again

Sunday, April 28, 2013

Since I've been sparking I've had so many new and interesting experiences: fitting into the rides at an amusement park, rediscovering the joys of being able to cross my legs gracefully, being able to walk briskly up and down stairs at a stadium, going to a rock concert and being bold enough to push my way to the front, squatting down to pet the dog and then realizing - oh, I'm squatting...and it's comfortable.

Having lost almost 95 pounds now I am daily experiencing some new thing in my new body - I can run, I can dance, I can walk into a room and be one of the skinnier people there...
But yesterday really took the cake (ooops - sorry about the cake reference...)

You see yesterday I went shopping with the devil. And by devil, I mean my 13 year old daughter. No she is not mean and nasty with horns coming out of her head... (okay - well maybe sometimes...she is 13..)
But she is a seductress when it comes to shopping - all sweetness and smiles. At the shoe store she started in on me.....
Mom, how come you never splurge on yourself (ummm - cause all my money gets sucked up by you???)
Mom, how come you don't have any pretty shoes (ummm - cause I'm a mom??) Mom - you should try these on (holding out a pair of impossibly high heels.)

I'd like to be able to tell you that I was strong and kept in mind that I have bills to pay this week. I'd like to be able to tell you that I smiled and passed.
But I took the bait - I took the heels - I put them on.

Now in the past the only Disney character I ever felt a kinship with was Dumbo with his lumbering clumsiness... But as soon as I buckled the 6 inch stiletto strappy black sandals on I felt - dare I say - just a bit more princess like...

Daughter asks, Mom why don't you have heels? And I truthfully answered that I have weighed so much in the past that I would have snapped the heel - and certainly my balance was not good enough to keep myself aloft on heels - plus they simply killed the balls of my feet. 267 pounds balanced on the balls of your feet. Ouch.

But at 161 - it really didn't hurt....I stared in the mirror. I wavered. I wondered.
Am I at almost 48 a little too old for heels???

But they sparkled...and I looked taller...and more elegant somehow. Is it too late, I wondered? Will I just look silly? One more look in the mirror and then at my daughter's face....

Tissue flew everywhere - I tried on about 20 pairs of shoes..
And yep - took home the stiletto sandals and a "practical" pair of strappy , wedge heeled black sandals....

Which explains why tonight I am learning how to walk all over again- in heels for the first time in 20 years... Send me good wishes and prayers for the protection of my ankles... maybe it's not too late.
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    Ginny! I"m so happy for you - and so inspired BY you. One of the things I miss after having crossed over into DumboLand is wearing pretty shoes. I'm SO looking forward to wearing heels again. Thanks for the glimpse from the other side of the fence. I just found out I lost .6 lbs this week, for a total of 7 lbs. Of the 125 I want to lose. Yea me! And yea you! Thanks for the look ahead.
    1295 days ago
    Where them heels with pride! Even if its just a few special occasions. Look at them as a prize for a job well done. Wear them because you can. The rest of the days wear the more sensible shoes cuz yah that does feel much better!
    1572 days ago
    Hooray for you and your daughter! Glad you had a good time, I wear heels but not as much as I did when I was younger and the more practical side of me tells me the wedge heels are safer than those strappy stilettos. But, truth be told I have both and the more comfy sensible "business" shoes, and sneakers of course and ....well you get the picture. Shoes are a fashion accessory after all and as my good buddy told me last year as she got some strappy stilletos before her trip to Mexico with her hubby, the y will look really cute when I carry them as I walk on the beach after dinner!

    Enjoy your new found freedom and celebrate that our kids keep us young!!!
    1664 days ago
    WOW!!! I am SO thrilled for you! There is NOTHING like a pair of sexy shoes to make you feel like a million dollars! Sadly, I have heel spurs and can only wear a few brands of shoes, all of which are BORING, but in my heart I am still wearing those red "knock me down" stilettos!!!

    1664 days ago
    There is no age limit on heels! My grandmother's bed friend, Edna (I called her Neddie), wore heels into her 80s. I haven't seen her in a long time, she's in a nursing home now, but I bet you she still wears her six inch pumps!
    1664 days ago
    Enjoy wearing your heels but keep in mind that they really are not healthy even for a 20 something. I have to admit one of the biggest changes for me when I lost weight was that I could actually wear women's shoes again instead of my men's extra wide sneakers. There is not much losing weight can do to fix my size 11 extra wide foot, so buying a shoe in a regular store will never happen for me. emoticon for you!
    1664 days ago
    How awesome! Heels aren't my thing, nothing I have an urge to wear, but I do have my eye on a sundress to wear someday...
    1664 days ago
    Awesome blog!! What a NSV!!! I'm so glad you got the shoes. I think the best lesson you showed your daughter is that you are worth it. You've worked hard and the shoes are a fantastic result!!

    Keep practicing and those ankles will hold up!
    1664 days ago
    I think it's wonderful you are in touch with the "high heel" you again. Enjoy - we all need to be girlie sexy every so often.

    Be careful! emoticon Pat
    1664 days ago
    You need to rock some pictures please! This is one to document and show the world! emoticon
    1664 days ago
    I look forward to wearing high heels, although I will be about 6'2 when I do. :-)
    1664 days ago
    photos please.i do so envy you.i ould love to wear high heels again but somehow they donĀ“t go with my leg brace proud of you now if i was your daughter i would be saying too you."now we just need a nice cocktail dress to go with the shoes,right handbag and of course new hair do etc ,etc.after all have to show the shoes off to there best advantage,lol. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
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  • MARYANN2323
    It's NEVER to late!! Learn to walk, and then..........learn to dance!
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  • MARIES32
    Good for you. I sometimes forget that my daughters are watching, wondering what life will be like for them when they are older. What a great example of spontaneous joy, and in the shoe store, to boot.
    ps I'm wishing the best for your ankles. emoticon
    1665 days ago
    Good luck! And now you need to find a tiara to really feel like a princess.

    1665 days ago
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