Sunday, April 28, 2013
I wanted to stop by and give you all an update. I have been overwhelmed by emotion at the support and prayers my Sparkfamily has sent me. As some of you know, I am not a religious person. However, I am spiritual and have a strong faith in the power of God, whether He chooses to use it or not. Times like these inevitably cause us to question His influence in and over our lives.
My father has led a full and rich life, during which he touched the hearts and souls of so many people. It has surprised me how many "strangers" have come to see him at the bedside and reminisced at his positive influence in their lives. This accident has robbed us of a wonderful soul. He is still in a coma and has not made any notable progress toward recovery. The doctors who have the courage to tell us the truth say that he has very little chance of recovering to the point of being able to communicate. They say he will most likely require a feeding tube, breathing assistance and nursing home care for the rest of his life. I know this is not what he would have wanted. He made that known.
The problem is another set of doctors are quite a bit more wishy washy. They don't say he has a good chance of recovery, but they won't say he has a poor chance of recovery. They simply say, "everyone is different." My life has been in constant turmoil. As a family, my mom, siblings, extended family, we are strong and leaning heavily on one another.
My mom is strongest by far. She is recovering wonderfully and will likely be transferred to the rehab facility within the next couple of days. Mom is determined to make a rapid and full recovery. I know she hasn't realized the full implications of this situation yet. I'm not sure I have either.
I'm taking things one day at a time. I'm blessed to have an employer who is understanding and supportive. The next few days will be hell for me. At this point the miracle I am searching for is peace and forgiveness.
As you can imagine, I haven't exercised since Tuesday and my eating has been blown out of the water. Emotional eating at its finest. I won't apologize for my lack of participation on Spark or in my challenges, because I know you all understand.
I don't need or want advice on the decisions that face us right now. Thank you, but this something we have to middle through on our own. Please respect my wishes on this.
Your support and prayers reflect the loving spirits within each of you.
Much love and thanks to all of you.