Sunday, April 28, 2013
After my run on the 17th I really felt down, got back into my I just cant do this mindset, this isnt for me, Ill never accomplish what I want to do... made a million excuses and ate bad stuff and sat on my behind for 10 days. I didn't go walk let alone jog or run. but you know what?
I put on my big girl panties today and kicked my attitude out the door.
I didn't eat really well today but I did get up and run and I ran harder then I ever have, not that it measures up to what some people do but I was in tears. It started raining about 5 minutes into my warm up and I was tempted to go home but I just couldn't let myself do that.
rain pouring over my head, and I ran, and when it hurt I kept running. was bearing my teeth and in tears after the end of my run sections of my run walk regimen. I wanted to stop half way thru my run portion but for the first time ever I didnt let myself down. it hurt, but its not the pain of an injury its the pain of legs that have carried this weight for too long.
Its like when you have to be mean and tell your child no, it hurts them, but it is good for them. in the long run anyways. my legs hurt and wanted to stop but I said NO I am not stopping if I stop it will always be this hard but if I push forward and just go one of these days these pains are going to be a comforting memory I will sit back and say I am so glad I pushed threw and did what needed done.
when I got home my face was literally burning. ate a banana drank about 25 oz of water and stretched it out and let me tell you what. I will take going to bed feeling like this over going to bed hating myself for not running any day!
no time for a shower and bed I work in the morning :)