Day 4.28 Strange days
Sunday, April 28, 2013
On a whim I checked my diet tracker as far back as it would go (2008). It was interesting to see the dips and rises--most of the dips corresponded with some kind of event that I was attending--like a wedding or vacation--the rises are...well, the rest of the time lol. I expected the weight gains in the fall leading up to January, and the subsequent January drop (you know, for that new year's resolve I would get), but what surprised me were the slow but steady gains over the course of the summers. I mean--wouldn't you think I'd LOSE weight over the summer? Apparently not. It would seem that, everytime I stopped dieting and exercising, my weight would creep up, slowly and steadily, until the next round of weight loss. Except for 2009-2010, apparently I stayed about the same all year round. Of course, the next round of weight loss always started at a higher weight than the previous round.
So, if I give in to my natural state and live with no controls or restrictions or guidelines...I get fatter. And fatter and fatter and fatter.....I wonder, how overweight would I be right now, if I hadn't tried to drop my weight back down periodically? Or would it have levelled out at a certain point, as evidenced by the 09-10 year.
Hmmmm some more.
No end synopsis to all that. Just thinking out loud, I suppose. I'm kind of hoping this new lifestyle of mine sticks--it has been the slowest steady downhill trend yet, plus the longest that I've maintained working out since--well, 2008. :D
The jury is still out on the trainer thing being a good idea. The motivation is HUGE, definitely...but there are other things about it that make me...pause. A female trainer might have been more ideal, let's just say.
And my husband...yeah about as thick as a 2 by 4 sometimes. I get tired of banging my head against a wall and am almost at the point of not trying anymore. Ugh. Can you tell I'm frustrated today? Lol.
I've also been drinking a lot more on the weekends than usual. (See: husband and 2 by 4) Think I'll try and reduce that for the next couple of weeks and see if it improves my mindset.
*OMG if I have to listen to that effing video game and the shooting noises one more time I'm going to shoot someone myself!!! Arrrrgh*
Maybe I'll go for a run.