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My Journey to releases....

Sunday, April 28, 2013

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Iíve been releasing issues for a few years now, and the breakthrough of my full release started with my hair. I know we are not our hair, and we are not our skin, but still Ėmy release started with my hair.

I was going through some things and I felt I needed a change.
The big chop at that time seemed to be the answer for me, so I cut off all my hair. I didnít mind doing it Ėbecause Iíve done this before. Hair has never been an issue for meÖ Well I thought it wasnít but it sure in hell was.

Iíve went from2003 locs to releasing them in 2007 to weaves overnight.
I felt alright, but I felt that was part of my new lease on life. I had this new body, and I was loving myself at 145-150 pounds, but it didnít last long. 2009 brought about many changes.

Well, my body flipped on me Ėmaybe because I flipped on myself. I donít know! But everything started to slowly fall apart after chopping my locs off in 2007. I had this new body, I was engaged and I found myself living a lie; because to be honest with you. I sure in hell didnít like myself.

That relationship ended in 09.
Found myself in another one very quickly.
I met the love of my life and found myself engaged again 2009 was no joke.
I was a fast mover. I was on the move!
I didnít want to live or die alone- and I was on a fast track to fatville.
Everything felt right, but still I was slipping.
In 2010 we got a house.
In 2010 I cut off all my hair again.
In 2011 we got married.
In 2011 I went on ahead and twisted up my afro and went pro-loc.

My life started to click again Ėnot only that. I was still popping off in all kinds of directions Ėstruggling to lose weight, struggling to grab hold of myself, but most of all Ėstruggling to rid myself of the past.

Then my 2012 breakthroughs came with many break downs of who I was.
~1 I found myself living a mental lie. Yes! I said a mental lie.
I had changed myself for all the wrong reasons back in 2007, and I found myself reflecting on my hair once again.

What made me do it? You know! Change my hair to keep that man.
I mean, itís funny now that I think back on it. He said. You should cut your hair and do something nice to go along with that new body.

I reflected on that. But I didnít know he was trying to make me look like every girl heíd met. He even paid for my hair-doos, and invested in new clothes too Ėbut still I wasnít happy with myself at all.

Then after the reflections of my past stop washing over me. I found myself in tears; because it hit me. It was all about my hair.

I didnít mind being nappy or black.
I didnít mind wearing no makeup, but the ex-boyfriend loved it a lot.
He would shower me with gifts for keeps. And tell me I was the one his soul always seek and as I think back I can LOL; because this man was trying to do me like a build a bear workshop Ėbut instead of a bear it was the perfect woman.

Now Iím Loc-Diva to my Loc-Prince My husband.
Now Iím the perfect reflection of my very own soul; because this is me and I am now one.
locs round 2 for my husband locs round 2 for me. As you can see we been here before.

Now I can enjoy my life worry free.
I donít mind my hair getting wet.
It doesnít cost my husband a thing Ėjust a box of dye from time to time, and I really do enjoy the essence of me.

My husband said one thing that made me really reflect tonight and what he said to me was priceless.

A woman who can wear natural hair is a woman of pure black beauty.
I love the fact that youíre recognizing who you are and how you stay true to yourself Ėeven if you drive me crazy Ėbut crazy in a good way.

So, there you have it.
This is why I had to release and get back to me.

Peace and Blessings!


Member Comments About This Blog Post:
CRYSTLE4HIMTX12 4/29/2013 8:50PM

    Neat peek into your journey. emoticon

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GETNFITAFTER60 4/28/2013 4:58PM

    You are a straight shooter and that's one of the many things I like about you. Such an inspiration to me. emoticon

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LADYSMITHC 4/28/2013 2:27PM

    You must work for HOURS on these videos! They are truly full stories of your life.
I can tell that you have taken time to select the best lyrics for your videos too.
Nice Work
OH One more thing...
I love your speaking part at the end. Love it.

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FELINEBETTER 4/28/2013 12:38PM

    I was thinking the same thing: Your smile lights up the room! Wow! I found it quite fascinating watching the many facets of Lynn through time!

You are beautiful inside and out. I agree with your husband too.

Thanks for adding me as well!

Rock on sister! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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COCK-ROBIN 4/28/2013 7:12AM

    You're doing great!

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LYNN-LOVESLIFE7 4/28/2013 6:04AM

    ~ Purple thank you so much for the comment. Yes, I've realized that I have a wonderful smile and I smile as often as I can. emoticon

Comment edited on: 4/28/2013 6:05:50 AM

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PURPLELEI 4/28/2013 3:07AM

    I hope you realize what a great smile you have. emoticon Kudos on your hair release. emoticon I have a few releases of my own to deal with. Don't we all?

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