Saturday, April 27, 2013
I'm not sure how I'm feeling honestly, it changes moment to moment. Yesterday wasn't too bad. I felt pretty good till about 4 when i got home from work. We made plans to take our kids to the park with our friends and I really wanted to back out but didn't. I didnt feel like i had the energy to do anything. But it wasnt that bad. I even messed around with my friend's hula hoop which is a 3lb exercise one and WAY easier than mine. I still cant keep mine up for more than 30 secs. The heavy one was a piece of cake.
Anyway, I have no patience. Ive been in the house with the kids all day cuz Chris had to go do stuff and they've been driving me insane. I just keep snapping. I know I have a shorter fuse than in general and I've been having trouble not yelling. I hope that part passes soon.
I slept great last night and had a good nap while the kids napped. I didn't have enough juice today. Everything requires so much effort. I did drink a lot of herbal tea though. And I just had some grapefruit, apple, carrot, ginger juice which was delicious!
Mentally, I'm so-so. Every time my mind starts wandering to food, i snap it back. I just dont even want to go down that road. I just keep bringing my thoughts back to what I want to get out of this and what I want to prove to myself. I keep thinking about all the energy I'm going to have when i get over this hump and working out again and how much better I'll feel. The crappiness I feel right now is temporary but will be permanent if I keep treating my body how I was.
It's amazing how much I fluctuate though. One minute I'm organizing the closet and the next minute i just want to sit on the couch. Then I think, hmm maybe I'll do some yoga. and then I change my mind. haha.
I think i timed it well. I know the second and third day are the worst so at least its the weekend. And next week is my week to have an extra free period at work so I'll have some extra chill time. If i can just get past Tuesday, I might have a fighting chance. Right now I'm trying to just focus on each day and the end goal but not the whole 30 days that I want to do. One day at a time.