Saturday, April 27, 2013
At the beginning of this month my sister and I went to go see Jillian Michaels for her "Maximize Your Life" tour. I've been wanting to write a journal about my thoughts but with this being my last semester before I graduate it's been busy. I LOVE Jillian Michaels. I watched her on the Biggest Loser this last season and she was a big motivation. I even got her book "Slim For Life" which I started reading. She showed us a video of the life that we are living currently with obesity and all these health problems and It hit me hard that that's what I'm stuck in right now. In the past five years I've been on the motivation to lose weight and then I'd just give up. Each year I promise myself that this is the year and at the end of the year I'm stuck back to making a new years resolution about how this is the year finally and I will lose weight and get healthier. She talked about weight loss with the focus on nutrition and fitness. It was all similar to what was in the book. And then the second part of her show was on "Why" the reasons why we need to do certain things and why we don't such as our excuses. Since then I've been wanting to come up with a list of Why I want to lose weight. I'm thinking of making another blog entry so that I can start one and just keep adding to it as I go on. She told us to find our heartbeat and whenever we feel like giving up that is the reason why we continue. Because we have a heart beat and we are alive today.
Last night I wasn't feeling very well. I took an Advil because I felt sore and I ended up feeling like something was stuck in my throat after. It lasted the whole night the day before and I couldn't sleep. I ended up waking up with it and then last night it just got worse. I was scared that it could be my Asthma so I took my puffer and still it hurt bad. I ended up sleeping with an ice pack and some Vicks on my chest which seemed to help. It's gone now but I will go to the doctors if it does occur again. But last night I felt like I was making myself really unhealthy and really weak. I could feel my heart pounding and for a moment when I had this weird feeling in my chest I thought that I've had it. I'm done making myself more unhealthy and making bad choices. It all starts with saying "Just Today" and that goes on for months and soon I'll be back to gaining weight. I promised myself that if I get better last night that I would work hard towards losing weight. Today I've ate quite healthy and kept it very clean. I have no excuse. I'm done school. I have no job and I'm just at home doing nothing. So this is my opportunity to take it and start working towards my goal. I'm done with being FAT. & I'm going to do this for myself. I want to Maximize my life to the fullest.