Saturday, April 27, 2013
I woke up this morning at an unusually early hour (especially for a Saturday). 5 AM. I have no idea why, but I was pretty bolt-upright in bed. So I got up and was wandering around the house when I passed in front of the mirror in the living room. My immediate thought was "Who the heck is in the house with me?" It startled me because the person in the mirror did not at all match the person I expected to see at that early, sleepy hour. The mental vision of my old self was fully awake and in charge.
After a brief moment of panic (followed by the embarassed recognition of my error), I had a little giggle. In the early light of dawn, I saw a woman, not bad-looking, with very distinct features and welcoming eyes. My mental image of myself does not yet accept this new person as reality, but is coming to the point where there are certain aspects that are recognizable. I don't think the mental image will be able to live in denial for too much longer before acceptance of the new vision of "self" will have to make peace with the old.