Saturday, April 27, 2013
The best of intentions went out the window this week. Okay that's a bit harsh. Why is it that when I have a good plan to start something new all kinds of crazy things come my way. It's the proverbial BIG TEST OF GRIT!
I had my veggies and salad and beans and all that stuff stocked up on Monday morning. The day went just fine and I was right on track... and then wednesday rolls along and someone has quit at work and they need me in as many evenings as I can cover... and I need the money .... so off I go.
Now I work in a group home for adolescent youth - and as much as we are working on feeding them healthy foods - it is lots of foods that were not on my Eat to Live plan. So my days went fine and then I would find myself at the table with them.. and not doing well with " not eating all that meat and starch." Why is it that even those yucky sidekicks that I normally don't like - were so temptingly tantalizing to me when they were off my list?. My god! I haven't eaten side kicks for over a year, never really liked them and there I was snarfing a bowlful with the boys at dinner time.... Buffalo wings - last night I was smacking my lips on spicy buffalo wings - having an out of body experience seeing myself in the kitchen chomping down the wings - what was that all about???
Here's the thing. My own fault. I failed to organize my own food to take with me because during the day I was working on my own business stuff and then I was running to work my 4 - midnight shift. Just another excuse at poor time management. And why is it that as soon as I say I'm laying off the meat for a couple of weeks - That is all I can think of putting in my mouth!!!!!!!!!
Okay so now its plan B today. It is almost 2 pm - I am going to go make a big salad, throw some chick peas on the bottom of the glad container throw salad on top and pack a small container of balsamic vinegar and olive oil. Today I am ready. Today I am back on track.
I guess I have to look at the past 5 days as a trial run - got it right maybe half the time... but I have to admit I am having a real tough time with all the food that is on hand at the house. It's stuff I don't keep in my house so I'm not tempted. This is a true test of pure will. Because when I close my eyes and remember how good I felt in my body when I was on EAt to Live last year - It is a great feeling. I need to work through all the crazy up and down emotions and sink into healthy eating.
I've been stressed financially and I"m eating my feelings. I have to switch back to working out the stress physically. Walking. DVD's with big bad bob harper. That's what has to happen. I need to get myself back on track. Today. I start again today. And isn't it true that the more times you try to build that skill - the more likely you will be successful????
Someday soon I'll be a Pro!