Ran away from the spider because he bites. I was bit yesterday, again. I had to take benadryl, the bite stings and itches.
I'm dealing with a frenemy that is weird and I just don't want to have anything to do with her. She is just abrasive and bossy. She has driven almost everyone away from book club and now she has driven me away too. I tried taking a break for 6 months and then I went back thinking maybe things have changed, well dumb on me, because they haven't. And now she is saying that I 'don't get to just disappear for 6 months'. She is a lot older than I am and her bf committed suicide several years ago. I think she doesn't want her environment to change because then she will have to cope with the fact of his death. I don't want to see her at all and my other friends in book club completely understand what I am talking about. I will be seeing them separately. The whole thing is stressing me out. I have been doing lots of meditations on the subject, lots of setting boundaries, lots of fortifying my own self confidence. But, I am dealing with a spider bite and taking benadryl makes me feel anxious, so whatever was bothering me gets magnified.
In other news: I have increased my workout intensity. I'm getting sweaty.
I'm getting hot. I'm getting tired. I am doing body weight strength training. I don't know that I'm any thinner.
Eats over the past week: I had more meals out than I wanted. I did successfully watch what I ate most of the time. One meal was a fish
lunch at Fins, its a really nice restaurant. I enjoyed something called 'opah' which I guess is a Greek fish. Its a little rubbery but the meal was good anyway, served with fresh coleslaw (very light, no mayo.) Then I had a meal on Wednesday with book club at Denny's, I had a bowl
of oatmeal and an orange
smoothie. Yesterday I had lunch at Denny's. I had the fried seafood
platter, I skipped the bread
. I just had a small yogurt
for dinner when I took the benadryl. I don't like to take pills on an empty stomach. I need to work on keeping enough healthy eats with me
at all times so that I don't eat out needlessly. Thats about preparation.
Here is my dream
rotation for next week, subject to change without notice lols!!!
Tuesday: Cathe's Low Impact Challenge
; Shiva Yoga for beg. 35 min.
Wednesday: Jillian No More
Trouble Zones; Lunar Yoga
Friday: Step Reebok
; Gary Bromley Yoga Class
+ 1 Tummy Trimmers segment and Stretch Max w/band