Saturday, April 27, 2013
I woke up today with a bit of stress. My husband left his phone here, because I don't have one. He has one with him, because he has a partner traveling with him. Anyway, so I woke up having to deal with some of his stressful situations. I hadn't even had my coffee yet! lol
I started the Stress Busters Challenge, and I am trying to write out my stressers. Well, first and foremost, and probably the biggest one....my lack of employment, my lack of paycheck, our bills coming due, no money to pay them, and my landlord getting on us. I am stressed out about those things...as anyone would be. BUT, there is NOTHING I can do about these things right at this moment, so I'm going to pray about them, ask for answers and possibly a miracle (lol) and let them go so that I don't dwell on the stress and semi-depression that comes with my inability to deal with them. I am a very independent person, and it's very difficult for me to put all of the control into someone else's hands. But, since losing my job, I'm taking a backseat and letting someone else drive. Hopefully my husband is able to do it all. I feel bad for putting it all on him, but he told me not to worry about it...to take care of myself and the kids and he will take care of all of it.
I am going to look at it this way. What is meant to happen will happen. We are all on a journey in every aspect of our lives. Our primary goal in life is to learn lessons. If we are meant to be taught a lesson, even through difficulties and stress, then we need to learn that lesson however it will come. I'm a worry-wart though, so I worry about it all. However, I'm trying to let it go, and just do the next right thing.
Therefore, today, I'm cleaning cleaning cleaning. I have let the chores go the last few days because I've felt helpless. Time to bust out of that rut and just do it! I am thinking, there will be no other time in which I will be able to focus on these things (keeping the house, spending time with my 5 and 7 year old, focus on applying to so many different jobs, and free time to get healthy) so I'm going to jump on these opportunities and roll with them! I will have to keep reminding myself of this HUGE Blessing, because I can slip back into the woe me's.
I am finding great support here at SP, and I have my best friends, my husband, and my sister (who happens to be one of my best friends also). I have God. I have my spirituality. I have two wonderful children. I have a roof over my head (for now anyway). I have my health, for the most part-and which I am trying to better. I have food. I have a vehicle (for now anyway). I have a day FULL of possibilities. I know that in order to move past this slump, I need to accomplish the things that I CAN control....cleaning the house, spending time with the kids, and exercising/eating right. Those are my next right things.
Oh! And I did order a new dvd today. I have been interested in learning Tai Chi since the day my late mom and I watched Calendar Girls and saw those women doing it! :) I researched it a little bit and I would so LOVE to join mind, body and spirit to have that level of wellness and health. I ordered the dvd and it should be here within two weeks! :)
Going to enjoy the possibilities!!!! Thank you all so so so much for the Blessings, the positivity, the strength, the energy, and the love that you are and offer. You have no idea how much it means to me!