Saturday, April 27, 2013
I keep trying to explain to people how completely different it all feels this time. I have done the diet-and-fail thing countless times. I would set a weight goal, spend a few weeks to a couple months denying myself everything I perceived as "bad", or trying to deny myself and stumbling until I would finally give up. Why? Well, because I was "trying" and didn't see progress. That's because the only gauge I gave myself for progress was that one number - that weight goal that was way off in the distance and I couldn't seem to get to fast enough.
This time, I don't really have a specific weight goal. I put a number in, but the real goal is to become healthy and active enough to keep up with my own desires! To be able to live life to the fullest. That's my fire. But, I have learned that you don't get to just snap your fingers and have your fire. A roaring fire takes time and work.
So, this time I am measuring progress in a realistic way. Each healthy choice is a piece of kindling. Each walk, each ten minute workout, each cardio session is a gust of air igniting another spark into a flame. Each successful week is another flicker of those flames catching the edge of a log. If I stumble - that's just an opportunity to re-position the foundation of the fire and keep it going. Sure, the end goal is the bonfire of life - but, I have discovered that I am really proud of myself for figuring out how to build a fire and keep it going. That's the real long-term reward.