Friday, April 26, 2013
My office is out to get me.
There are feeding opportunities laid out like bait in the lunch room almost every single day. Leftover pizza... bag of chips... muffins... donuts... home made apple pie... sandwiches left over from some luncheon meeting... chocolates someone brought back from vacation... leftover holiday goodies... cookies... crackers...
I stopped eating lunch in the lunch room as a result. Why set myself up for a Girl Vs Food struggle? Out of sight, out of mind.
ALMOST. EXCEPT FOR POPCORN.
Why? Because even though I cannot SEE the popcorn (that a co-worker microwaved, for a Friday afternoon 'treat') - I can SMELL it. It smells GREAT. But I don't WANT it. I have other plans for this evening, that I don't want to have to alter, to accomodate an unnecessary/unplanned popcorn snack.
That scent trigger is strong, though. It's hard to resist. And on the one hand, I don't "have to" resist. "I Can Have Anything I Want, In Moderation!" Yes, fine, that's all well and good... but... I don't WANT it. I wasn't contemplating popcorn prior to smelling it. I wasn't craving it. It was just not on my radar at all. The only reason I *THINK* that I "want" it right now, is because of that buttery scent wafting throughout the entire floor, all the way in to my cubicle. I cannot avoid this trigger, short of bowing out of work claiming Sudden Illness. I wonder if "sick of struggling against the Popcorn Trigger" would count as a legitimate medical reason for time off?
I have 30 more minutes of Girl Vs Food-Smells.
I will "make it" because honestly, I am so MAD about being put into this struggling/combative position - it gives me the strength I need to deny, deny, deny that popcorn. But it has put a damper on my mood - and, in fact, my productivity - all my mental energy is consumed by this struggle.
Aww popcorn, y u smell so delicious? I do not love you. Go away.