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What do you do when you are stuck?

Friday, April 26, 2013

You try to get unstuck, right? I have been stuck behind the finish line of my life for many years now. I get almost there and then I get stuck. I decided that this year was the year I was going to get unstuck, I am going to attempt to cross the finish line on a few things in my life.

The first thing, and the main reason we are all here, is to change our life styles. That can mean many things to many people, losing weight, eating healthier, running, racing, plain old exercising. I started here on Spark 4 years ago because I was overweight and not exercising and financially it made sense. In my past attempt s to lose weight, I was always successful on Weight Watchers, because it is the same concept, track your food and exercise and the rest will follow. Of course, I know if it were that easy I would not still be here day after day. Now, I have lost weight and regained it back more times than I can count over the years and that was the difference when I started here 4 years ago. I wanted to stop that cycle. So, I had to really concentrate on what I doing wrong in my past attempts. First, I would not make it a lifestyle; I would lose the weight and then go back to my old habits. The other thing I was doing wrong, not dealing with my “brain” weight. I knew that the weight was not all physical. I achieved my “weight loss” goal in November of 2010 (lost 38 pounds), but I have not been that weight since. I have not gained it all back, I did however put on about 13 pounds in 2011, lost about 7 in 2012 and have been stuck there ever since. See, I just can’t seem to get over the finish line and in this case stay there!! So, that brings me to today. I got on the scale for the first time since November 1, 2012. I am not a fan of the scale, I let those numbers seep into my self-worth, but if I am going to cross the finish line, I have to start right? Why did I get on the scale today, let’s back up a little to the beginning of April, I knew I needed to do something, say it with my, I was stuck. I decided to approach my weight with something I would never normally do, but since nothing else was working, I thought I would give it a try. I am going to preface this with saying that I don’t balk at anyone’s choice of methodology, you should do what works for you. If Medifast works for you do it, if South Beach works for you do it, if WL surgery works for you by all means do it, but if you don’t make it your lifestyle, you will be back to square one. With that being said, I decided that I needed a jolt, I was eating way to much top ramen, taking in that extra glass of wine all too often, and eating way to much candy. In this instance I needed to go cold turkey, and tell myself no, so I have been doing the Atkins plan along with logging my calories here on Spark. This plan has always been kind of counter intuitive to me. It is pretty high fat; you aren’t really supposed to worry about calories either. Plus, I have tried it in the past and just never had any success, so I always poo pooed it, (but truth be told I never really did it right and always gave up, you see, not getting over that finish line). But, I felt I was becoming completely dependent on marshmallow peeps and just need to back away. The thing is, by tracking my carbs on the Atkins tracker and by tracking my calories here on Spark, I can watch my fat intake to make healthier choices and I believe it is something I can live with for a long time. Am I ever not going to have a piece of cake again, no, but I decided I would treat sweets with exactly what they are, a “ treat” and not the daily occurrence it was becoming. I was pleased to see the number on the scale this morning was 8 pounds less than it was on November 1, 2012. I really do feel like it was the kick start I needed, it seems to be working for me, and I know that I have to continue to move forward with this lifestyle. So, good, some of that physical weight is coming off, but again, the physical weight has come off in the past, and I know it will again. That brings use the next finish line to cross, the brain “weight”

Backing up again to the beginning of April, not only did I need to give myself this little jolt on the physical weight, but I also decided that although I have been trying to work through my brain weight on my own over these past 4 years, it was time to call in a professional. I just don’t feel like I am going to cross the finish line without a coach there to help me. That is how I came up with the theme of this blog, my coach and I both decided that I was stuck, and getting to the bottom of why can indeed get me across the finish.

One of those things lines in my life I need to cross and or really cross out has everything to do with why I am here, my body image. That number on the scale, that quest for weight loss has permeated my life but not in a good way. You see when I was a teenage I had anorexia. That teenage girl has been a thorn in my side ever since because that skinny girl has always been who I have been trying to be for all these years. No matter how many times I say it to other people, that number on the scale does not define you, I don’t believe it, because the image I have in my head of how I am supposed to look is the skinny girl I was at 17. No matter what I do, or what my weight is, I am still trying to be that skinny girl. So, my coach asked me a great question, “ok, that girl might have been skinny, but was she happy” Hum, it really has got me thinking and will soon be another blog once I have the chance to really think it through, I hope you will tune in.

Anyways, the ultimate finish line for me is to get my brain weight dealt with, so the girl I am today can be happy, not that girl I was (we don't even know if she was happy). That way I can get cross the finish line in the other areas, including a healthy relationship not only with food but with a man.

I am not a runner, so I am not planning on running across the finish line; I just want to get across it, one step at a time!

Until next time…


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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 5/1/2013 8:11PM

    I've tried different things to jump start my weight loss. The only thing I liked was juicing. Did it for 10 days and it made the carb and sweet cravings go away, lol! Honestly though, whatever works, right? I may not have the best diet, I'm not a "clean" eater, but I;m eating in a manner that I know I will be able to handle for the rest of my life. It's gotten me this far, might as well stick with it!

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HANDSPK 4/29/2013 10:24AM

    I too tried a "Jolt" recently,. I did South Beach phase 1 for three weeks, and while it won't ever become a lifestyle for me, having strict rules to follow for a while did help me break some really bad eating habits I had formed. I was completely carb-addicted, so slowly adding them back into my life has been a good move. I feel like I'm eating much better and it really helped me over a curve.

That said, I really didn't lose much weight! Like you say--slow and steady wins the race. Good luck with yours!

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CHERIJ16 4/26/2013 3:15PM

    Sounds like you are taking the right steps to get across that line. Good luck! emoticon

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