Friday, April 26, 2013
Its been 2 months since I have been on here. And 2 months of struggles. I've been back and forth with being motivated to be healthy, and being lazy.
It's been a struggle, and I've allowed myself to stir in self-pity.
Thinking only of myself at times. Let's be honest, we are all like this from time to time.
Well the last 2 weeks have brought devastation to our lives, and shed light on the truth.
A close friend of my husband and I, James. Passed away on April 14th from a 4 year battle with colon cancer. Diagnosed at the young age of 40. This was my husband's best friend...our family has been grieving, and processing all of these emotions...realizing how short life really is.
My husband flew out for the funeral, and I stayed home with the kids(too expensive for all of us to fly).
All week we both grieved in our own way. However, in our hearts we know he is in a better place...he is with the Lord. But oh how our hearts miss him and all that he brought to our lives...he was such a blessing.
The funeral was on the friday(april 19th).
On April 21st our dear friends who have 3 boys, (5years, 3 years, and 5 months) were on their way to Hawaii for a family vacation...on their descent into Honolulu, their 5 month old son stopped breathing...they tried to do everything they could, as the plane landed, they immediatly rushed him to the hospital, while the other boys were taken care of by a flight attendant who opened her home to them. At the hospital the medics and dr's did everything they could to revive him, but he passed away.
Our hearts are SO heavy with grief for them...as a mother...this is hard to process. I am amazed at how they are handling this. They are so strong and leaning on the Lord through this process.
It got me thinking, about perspective and what matters most in life.
It prompts me to live a healthier life, but to appreciate and love my family, friends, in a different light...to be thankful for each day.
To respect my body and not take it forgranted. To intentionally live my life. To be intentional in how I manage my time, what I eat, how I speak, how generous I am (no strings attached), how I love my husband and kids. We only have one life to live.
At the end of the day...what are you thankful for? How are you going to live each day... (as if it were your last.)
I am challenging myself to lean on God more, appreciate the small things and be FAITHFUL in the small things, love my family, give of my time and talents, and be forgiving as we would want to be forgiven.
Our hearts are heavy at the moment...grieving along side our friends, as they process this tragedy. We don't know what its like to walk in their shoes, and when most people shy away from situations like this (out of fear) we will stay beside them...and weep with them...and celebrate the life of this baby boy, and our dear friend James.
Life is too short ... what are you going to do with your time. talents. heart.
Every day counts...