Lucky's bath helped me 'drop' everything & watch in THIS moment! He is VERY shy about his bathing, I've only seen this 2 times in our 5 years together! Life comes at us fast & fun, we just need to watch! The cute little gnome lady in the back round, is Luck's 'friend'. My Fairy God Mother made her for me out of a wooden spoon & I picked her up this past weekend. She is SO cute, RIGHT? I want to find tiny garden tools & an apron for her. A doll shop might be good for that.
It is another busy day! Getting my 'real' job ready to deliver today & traveling to R. Sunday.
I have been having a little low self esteem, this week. (I went over my goal by 2 # too much food AND SALT!) I saw a job opportunity for me in working with someone else's marionettes. In my hometown, 7 days a week! I don't know how long the gig is. It could be 1 week, it could be a year. At first it seemed like the perfect thing for me, (I've been looking for more income, but after investigating further, I realized I could not carry the show, physically. (12 marionettes in 2 cases) I am not a roadie! That is why I have created my small show. (4 marionettes & a tiny sound system) I perform in the living rooms of Disney Legends. I love it, it is fun AND I can move the equipment pretty easily! (I haven't been paid for this in the past) After checking out their website, I realized MY way of doing performances is NOT as focused as this company is. He started when he was young, like me. But he has been doing it FULL time, since then. I feel like it is harder for me to make a living, so I take on 'real' jobs. Maybe IF I had focused my entire life on my little company, I would be as successful as him! I mean, there are NOT very many marionette artists in the US. (Maybe 30) I am still going to send in my resume', but I do not think I will get it. I'm just not physically able to do it by myself. Maybe he has another marionette artist for this job so there would be 2 people. I could handle that. I CAN do my share, but not taking on someone Else's show & staging & learning how to work his marionettes AND performing 7 days a week, full time. I don't have ALL the details, but when I get back from my work trip North, I'll re-examin IF I am suppose to try for this job. I know my 'real' job would suffer AND my dance classes, etc. Because my focus would be on this new job. I am thinking out loud here. I am SO blessed to have you in my life to help me think about things!
Today I am feeling emotionally stronger! I did pilates yesterday & shopped several hours for supplies for my 'real' job. Getting my world together, just like I like it! When I take my power back, I ALWAYS feel GREAT!!
I had gotten upto 4 # over my goal, SCARY!!!! Today I went back to 1# above. Yesterday I kept to my REAL food goals. I KNOW how to release, but staying there is a bit harder. So lot's of water yesterday, proteins, fiber AND veggies, veggies, veggies, etc. Pilates 40 mins. AND walking for 2 hours! This all REALLY helped me.
Today I am focusing my weight to be under 2# of goal. That is a little under & gives me a leeway.
I'm back to work! Thanks for reading! Time ZOOMS.... I'm late for ZUMBA!
I love you all!