Change sucks! Cancer sucks!
Friday, April 26, 2013
I just haven't had the energy or desire this week to blog, but I'm making myself because I don't want to forget this past week.
First, I went with some friends to an expo about gluten and allergy free foods. So much fun. I made the decision that morning to allow myself to try whatever I wanted, just a tasting size, and not deprive myself. I'm not sure how bad I really was, but the food was great, and it wasn't too hard to go back to not having sweets again the next day. We had a great time.
I also went to my first naturopathic physical therapy. Super relaxing, worked on tight muscles, but I was really sore later that night. Kind of hurts my spirit because I was really hopeful that it would be a solution for me. Now I'm not sure how much impact it had on my week and my pain, because I'm just trying not to be too optimistic or pessimistic. We'll see if it works. I go back for a second treatment this afternoon.
I weighed in on Monday and had gained a pound again. The second week in a row. I've had about a month now with very little weight loss and I have to get my head back into this journey. Thankfully my trainer has been very supportive, and I really have appreciated that. She knows what struggles and challenges I've had going on over the past month and doesn't get on me about the fact that I should be doing better. She just encourages me, and right now that's definitely what I've needed.
This weekend I'm going to visit family and I have arranged to use a guest pass at an Anytime Fitness in the town I'll be visiting. Pretty good step for me! So, now I just have to get over my issues with maybe running into someone I know at that gym and I should be good! :)
Now onto the bad news of the week. I heard last night that my mom's cousin is going into Hospice Care. I know that doesn't mean she is dying, but it is definitely not good news. More than a year ago, this cousin was diagnosed with leukemia and underwent a bone marrow transplant. The transplant was a success, which was even more amazing for my family because a cousin on my dad's side had died from complications of the same kind of transplant just months earlier. But unfortunately her body has not been able to take the toll of the transplant and cancer as well, and even though the doctors were happy the transplant was successfully, my cousin has been in and out of the hospital and a nursing home with infections and other side effects. Her body just isn't strong enough to take everything that it has had to endure this last year. I just feel so helpless.
And I know this is hard for my mom and dad and my cousin's daughter. These are the times that being an adult is the hardest. I just want to ignore these kinds of things, but the truth is that it impacts us all on a daily basis. Cancer is such a terrible and horrible disease. I hope and pray every day that someone finds a way to get rid of it for good. My friends mom has finished her chemo treatments, but was in the hospital recently because of a fever and pneumonia. Now she's in Florida to enjoy family and her doctor thought the warm weather could really help her immune system. She's been through so much, just like my cousin. I believe that things happen for a reason, but these are tough situations to explain to myself. I was at the gym last night and when I wanted to give up, I think of these people who I love so much and are struggling just to live. I can work a little harder in my life to get healthy and stay that way. Enough thinking about illnesses and sickness...
Overall, the week was busy at work, but I made the time to get a workout in every day. I have a week before my first 5k and I am definitely not ready, good thing we are walking it! And I'm even staying away from the scale until Monday when I can be back at my gym, wish me luck!
Have a great weekend everyone!