I'm back at it...somewhat afraid to blog or be "visible" here on Spark People, for fear of jinxing myself. (not that I really believe in that sort of thing)
I am coming back from a very difficult couple of years, and I managed to gain about 60 pounds back from my original 120 loss during this time. If you've ever been thru regaining lost weight-not to be dramatic, but it is a pretty dark place. I believed the lies in my mind telling me that I was a failure and I could not recoup from this "fall".
I lean on a higher power tho~Jesus, and He has brought me out of the mire once again. I know that I will always undoubtedly struggle with weight and weight related issues...I have accepted that. I do however, look forward to each time I rise out of the ashes of the hard times that I will grow and get stronger and be able to see things clearer and hopefully do things differently.
Today I want to focus on being healthy and enjoying my life. I will not be crippled by the sadness and disappointment in myself for not being where I was 5 years ago...This way of thinking has already robbed me of two perfectly good years of my life (I allowed it)
Anyway, I want to be very upfront and open about where I am today. With God, myself, and anyone of my Spark friends who might be in this for the long haul with me.
My highest weight (recorded)-297 lbs in 2006
My lowest weight 179-2007
Some serious yo yo-ing went on in the years between 2011-2013
My new "starting weight" 241-January 2012
My weight at the beginning of this year 225-January 2013
My weight today 203-April 2013
So as you can see, I am down 38 pounds. YAY!!
I haven't been super excited about my weight loss until about the past week or so. I am really finally starting to see a difference in my body and I am starting to fit into some of my "skinny" clothes again. Hallelujah!
That's about all for now. I will slowly give more details on how I am getting this weight back off. I do love to blog, as it gives me some extra motivation and a place to come back and see progress. For now, I'm just gonna keep pushing~Keep moving forward!