Since i started sparkpeople, I've lost weight, gotten in shape, become a better runner, gained confidence, broke a toe, gained weight, lost all ability to eat healthy, become even a bad walker, gained more weight, been to the cardiologist, been to the E.R. with a possible heart attack...more likely a panic attack and reaction to a new medication, ...speaking of which, I've been on Celexa, Prozac, Vyvanse, Loratab (this one causing the make-shift heart attack), Synthroid, Armour Thyroid...and just so I state it here...not all these medications at one time...and I quit every one of them except Armour. I hate medicine...all made me feel horrible....so I still have the ailments that got me prescriptions in the first place; I've mindfully eaten, I've intuitively eaten, I've eaten healthfully, I've forgotten all that I know and I've eaten really unhealthfully, I've gained more weight.
Today, I took a walk and thought my foot would break off. I limped the rest of the day...from walking!? Squeezed into my fatty pants. I keyed in my food for today and it was over 2000 calories...whaaaa?!!
I look back at 148 pounds when I started all of this and all of a sudden that sounds great...sure wish I'd never tried to lose any weight and get healthy. Cause now, I have an extra 15 pounds stuck to my butt.
Sorry, just whiny mad. And I felt like writing something silly but throw out my frustrations all at the same time.
Oh, and by the way, I'm not complaining about Sparkpeople. I still like it a lot. I've gotten my family members on it and they use it a little...not religiously though at all. It's like they started using it, figured out what to do and still do that. Me? I know exactly what to do. I've told them what to do to lose weight, lower their cholesterol and get healthier...to stay away from prescriptions and it worked for them. So, I know all of this...why can't i do it? I'm guessing it's mental, emotional. Hence, the prescriptions of prozac and celexa, They didn't work...just knocked me out. Gotta regroup. Husband's employee assistance program? Hmmmmmmm.