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A little discouraged but still motivated

Thursday, April 25, 2013

My meeting with my advisor this morning was a bit discouraging. It was more like our meetings used to be, with me being too stupid to contribute anything and him being kind of vague (or so it seems to me anyway). At the end he said "just keep trying things"...

So, this makes me feel somewhat disappointed in how things are going and myself most of all, but I'm still motivated to try my best. I have a lot of negative thoughts going through my head though. The "I'm never going to make it", "I'm not smart enough to do this" and "I'm totally lost and have no idea what I'm doing" voices are particularly strong and loud, and the worst part is that I honestly - really and truly - believe them. I try to counter them and "fake it" but I consider those thoughts are realistic, not pessimistic. Sigh!

On a happier note, it turned out to be a beautiful day here today when rain was forecast, and tomorrow evening I am taking off with a friend for a short one-night camping trip to the desert.
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    As long as you never give up, there's no way you can lose... so please stay as strong as you can. I like the idea of giving some thought to changing advisors, too, if you can. I like to supplement what I get from counseling with reading self-help books for ideas to put to use. Although sometimes there's a lot of verbiage and "case studies" to wade through, there's usually also some sort of nugget(s) buried in there that I can implement. Good luck to you; it'll get better.
    1184 days ago
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    My autistic step son taught me one very valuable lesson while he was studying something hard for him to learn. He would say to himself "DON'T GIVE UP!" So I am telling you to continue trying and "DON'T GIVE UP!" You sound like a very intellegent person so I fel that you will make it through your studies with quality grades.

    I am happy for you that you had a beautiful day & have fun on your camping trip!

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    1184 days ago
    Is it possible to get a new advisor? Or try to get more concrete direction from him?

    That is frustrating when they are the perceived key to your success and you aren't getting what you need.

    I hope the camping trip is relaxing and fun!

    1184 days ago
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