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Feeling Extra Chipper Today

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Thursday, April 25, 2013

Feeling Extra Chipper Today. It is just a great day to be alive!!

It is just an amazing feeling to know that you are doing everything you can to improve your health, to improve your quality of life, to maybe extend your life.

Two years ago, I was ready to throw in the towel. I felt old. I felt used up. I quit going out with friends. Quit going out much even with DH. Quit going to his company functions. Quit going to most family functions. If you look back through all the photos, I was nowhere to be found - my life was already non-existent, and that was okay with me.

I had just accepted that I was on the downhill side of life. That I would suffer from aches and pains and there was nothing I could do about it. I was hurting physically, I was hurting mentally, I was accepting this as my old age, and I was just ready for it to be over with.

So what changed? Looking back, I am not really sure, but I think it might have something to do with a man (who loves & adores me) & a Harley. As I mentioned earlier this week, when DH got his Harley, I had hoped it was just some sort of "Mid-life I have Arrived" crisis. However I quickly realized that he was going to ride it, with or without me.

Now we are not talking some big fancy touring bike with all the bells and whistles - like extra wide cushy seats, something fit for the Queen of Sheeba. No, We are talking a Sportster. A nice bike, but not a bicycle built for two. Certainly not the size of a 230lb man AND a 270lb woman. emoticon

So I knew that I had to ride, or stay home. Staying home would have been fine with me, but I knew he really wanted me with him. And I knew that I did not want to be the old fat chick on the back of the bike. One or the other, I could handle. But not both. And since my fountain of youth was drank dry by the unicorns, that only left trying to lose some weight. emoticon

Going to the doctor for help was pointless. I had done it countless times before, but I went once more. It was not my regular doctor, and I was pointed in the direction of bariatric surgery. Given my BMI - (translation - as wide as I was tall) I was a candidate. However my insurance would not pay for it. So I knew that if it was going to happen, I would have to make it happen. It was all up to me. If it is to be, it's up to me..... or some non-sense like that. I really didnt believe yet, but I just knew that somehow, if I was going to lose weight, I would have to figure out how to do it on my own. This last Doctors visit, none of my numbers looked good. I was on the verge of being medicated out my @$$. I really was not ready to give up on living, and I certainly did not want my remaining years to be a burden on my family. So it was time to try to dig down deep and find some bit of strength, some kind of spark.



So I guess that got the ball rolling. But I was rolling uphill. It was a slow go. My head (heart) wasnt really in it yet, I am not sure why not. DH was still riding, but he was riding to work, so about an hour one way, so that 2 hours a day pretty much got it out of his system. Whew, what a relief!! Thank goodness, I could still keep my fat-self in my house.

I can remember laying in bed at night, thinking I might not wake up. I would die of a heart attack in my sleep. Yes it bothered me, but not enough to take action. Then one day for some reason, I just happened to hear a commercial for Dr. Oz. So I watched the show, and started implementing little changes. By the time fall rolled around, I had lost maybe 20lbs. Then I heard about Dr. Oz's Transformation Nation, and my sister and I accepted the challenge.

That same evening, my sister sent me a link to this tracking place, called Sparkpeople. I signed up, but it looked complicated and I was already tracking on my own, so I didnt need it. I told her I was tracking in excel, so why did she even send it to me? Geesh. So I forgot about it.

Then January rolled around. I was making better choices, but nothing much was happening on the scale. I dont know what made me come back to Sparkpeople, but I did. And it made all the difference for me. I began tracking faithfully, and have hardly missed a day since.

Weight loss has definitely not been linear. I have had my starts and stops. But one thing, I have pretty much maintained even with a stop. I am just now coming out of a stop again. It took me a while to even realize it was a stop. I would have a slight gain, followed by a loss just enough to make me think I was gaining ground. I was eating right and all, so I just knew it was a matter of time. Afterall, I felt fantastic!!!

Well once I realized I was pretty much stopped, dead stop, it has taken me a bit to get my groove back on. Now, I have my groove on again! I am hoping I have the formula to take me the rest of the way to my goal. emoticon

And what perfect timing. Two years ago today, when I turned 46, I felt 86. I knew I had one foot in the grave. I knew my genetic dice were loaded against me. Now here I am today, turning 48, and I feel... well I dont feel 48 even!! Is 48 the new 28??!! Okay, how about 38?! It doenst matter, it is just a number, but I am so glad to have one more. One more year, one more day - I will take it all!

Regardless of the number, I have learned that I do NOT have to accept the diseases of my parents - like heart disease, diabetes, high blood pressure, high cholesterol, cancer - that took their lives way too soon. I have the power to reverse many things just by making healthy food choices. Now that is power. I can heal, I can reverse, I can at least postpone many of the ailments that 2 years ago I would just lay in bed and say, "Here I am, come get me." Now I am getting out, enjoying life, enjoying my family, riding my horse again, loving every minute I spend with DH both on and off the New harley, and now I am saying, "You will have to catch me first!"
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SIZE8NOTSOMUCH 4/26/2013 8:48AM

    Thank you for sharing your story!!!

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HLOCHRIDGE 4/26/2013 8:47AM

    Yeah! What a great blog!!!!

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SHELL_G 4/26/2013 8:47AM

    Great blog! Very inspiring emoticon emoticon

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ROCKYCPA 4/26/2013 8:42AM

    Good for you - keep up the good work!

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DJSHIP46 4/26/2013 8:36AM

    Life is GREAT when you go for the gusto... And you do!!! Congratulations! emoticon emoticon

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KNYAGENYA 4/26/2013 8:36AM

    Thank you so much for the blog. I really needed to read it and it helped me stop my pity party of one.

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MOMMY445 4/26/2013 8:25AM

    what a great blog! you have come a long way! woo hoo! have a fantastic day!

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CHERYLHURT 4/26/2013 8:19AM

  Great blog!

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KAB7801 4/26/2013 8:15AM

    Harley and men will do it every time

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TWINZMOM7 4/26/2013 8:13AM

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SHANNONY84 4/26/2013 8:12AM

    Have a very very happy birthday and keep that cheer going!

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WATERDIAMONDS 4/26/2013 8:06AM

    What a tribute to the power of the mind to control the body. Well done!

And I hope you enjoy every single minute on the bike!!!
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JGRAY76 4/26/2013 8:04AM

    Good for you! I am so proud of you and know that you are an inspiration to others thank you so much for sharing.

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DEBLYNN323 4/26/2013 7:56AM

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What an inspiring story! Thank you for sharing!

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MUTTSBARK 4/26/2013 7:51AM

    I very much identify with your struggles. Sometimes I wind up in a funk that lasts months, and by the time I realize it ... Well, it's just like those Hoarders you see on TV. I think the problem is that they let so much junk pile up in their homes that it becomes too overwhelming to fight ... Same with your body. But when you start cleaning up the clutter, it feels so good you want to yell for joy ... Thank God for a brand new day and all that. Thank you. I don't know you, but by your post, I know you are a very cool person ... My inspiration to put down the coffee and move this morning.

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ANNASMOM12 4/26/2013 7:43AM

  glad you found, your way out of going the wrong way,

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NANCYTUNBERG64 4/26/2013 7:42AM

    Wonderful!!! Get out on that Harley and Rock IT!! emoticon

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KATHIC2 4/26/2013 7:26AM

  Great blog. So well said! Your journey gives me hope.

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ANTONIO54 4/26/2013 7:17AM

    Congrats on your powerful motivation (weight Loss) and getting your blog posted.
But, no pictures of the Harley? lol

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SANDYCRANE 4/26/2013 6:58AM

    Great blog. Glad to see that you found Spark people. I too feel 20 years younger now, and it is great. Keep up the good work.

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MILLEDGE2 4/26/2013 6:34AM

    You have MANY years of exciting life ahead (take it from someone almost 20 years further down the path)! So glad you've done the work which allows you to take advantage of all the opportunities. Have a great birthday! emoticon

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LIFETIMER54 4/26/2013 6:12AM

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PENOWOK 4/26/2013 6:07AM

    Great story!! I am so glad you are enjoying life again!!

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COOKIE_AT_51 4/26/2013 5:56AM

    emoticon emoticon to you with many more to come! Keep sparking my emoticon emoticon

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SHARON7795 4/26/2013 5:50AM

  Congratulations ! Losing weight is never an easy road, but with a good "can do " attitude and support that road gets easier. What is a "Spark Rally" ? WOW !!! That would have to be a huge inspiration for all of us !!! Does anyone know anything about this ? I'd sure be interested in attending one and meeting all these great people we read about !






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TRYINGHARD54 4/26/2013 5:35AM

    emoticon emoticon happy birthday

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NCSUE0514 4/26/2013 5:15AM

    Glad for you!

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    emoticon You've already given yourself your best gift! emoticon

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DANCINCAJUN1 4/25/2013 10:19PM

    emoticon What a great blog !! thank you and congratulations & Happy Birthday !! Roc


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PJBONARRIGO 4/25/2013 10:18PM

    Happy Birthday! What a great journey you have been on for the past two years! Thanks for sharing it with us. I am inspired :-)

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ESILBO 4/25/2013 9:01PM

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YOU ARE VERY INSPIRING. I KIND OF STOPPED TOO, BUT I AM STILL HANGING . I HAVE TO GET BACK ON TRACK TO CONTINUE ON THAT JOURNEY TO HEALTH. BY READING GREAT BLOGS LIKE THIS ONE, HELPS A LOT.

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LINDA! 4/25/2013 6:50PM

    What an inspiring blog...

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68ANNE 4/25/2013 5:58PM

    Woohoo,
Love reading about the wonderful change in mind and body!

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BECCAZEN7 4/25/2013 5:32PM

    It's nice day for a ride! Happiest of Birthdays to you! I am glad you took another look at SP! There are so many lives you have influenced (whether you realize it or not), so it would have been really devastating if you hadn't been here! Seriously, I don't want to think about it. So glad you are here. I can't wait for the rally to see you and meet all our sparkfriends. I bet you could have never even imagined doing a 5K two years ago! You have come a long way! Way to go!
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MOMTO2HEINZS 4/25/2013 4:52PM

    emoticon I love the power that knowledge brings. I am also so glad that when we use that knowledge to make changes to our bodies, they react fairly quickly and the disease that we were already living with subsides making it all worth it.

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LAURELSPARK 4/25/2013 4:43PM

    WooHoo for you....................keep up that great, positive attiude!

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POSITIVEPAULA8 4/25/2013 4:37PM

    Wow you are so inspirational! Good on you! AND good on your sister for introducing u to spark people! It is wonderful o know that you have awesome support natron your family, DH, sister etc.

Extra huge happy birthday to you! Wishing you lots of good luck , health, wealth, joy, cheer, laughter, peace and happiness on your birthday and always. Take care now! emoticon

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1DERLAND14 4/25/2013 4:34PM

    awesome blog!!! emoticon

Spark people was a turn around for me too!! Glad to hear that you are feeling so much happier and healthier...couldn't ask for a better birthday gift!

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MORTICIAADDAMS 4/25/2013 3:16PM

    Thank goodness for hubbys and Harleys!! LOL.

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TKOVACH1 4/25/2013 2:26PM

    Happy Birthday! Your blog was awesome, I love you sense of humor.
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123ELAINE456 4/25/2013 1:26PM

  An Awesome Blog. Congratulations and Happy 48th Birthday. May You Have Many More Birthdays ahead of You. You are very Inspirational and came along ways from Two Years Ago. This is the WTG!!! Keep Pushing Forward. God Blessings to You and Everyone. Have a Fantastic Day. Hugs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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BIGPAWSUP 4/25/2013 1:03PM

    Snoopy Dance! Standing Ovation! Hoo-Rah!!

I can begin to tell you how amazing and inspiring your story is. I'm so grateful to have you with me on this journey. You are AWESOME!!!

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KIMCOLLINGS 4/25/2013 12:59PM

    I love it! What a terrific attitude! Life is so fun when you let the fun come and get you and it just snowballs into more fun!! That is terrific that you maintained when "you stopped" too. Now that you're on a roll again it's all forward progress! Way to go!!

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