Thursday, April 25, 2013
I would be lying if I said it wasn't frustrating. I eat so healthy and work so hard what am I missing? I could be better on water, I could be better on meditation. Missing my yoga class. Almost wishing I hadn't gotten frustrated and left the center but really having someone come into your class and SCREAM at you. No that's not right. Its not my fault that place was bad. Still miss the girls and the automatic workouts.
Doing Jillian micheals and bike when I have the energy, Yesterday rode the horse for an hour that kicked my butt. My legs hurt almost all the time. I am feeling sorry for myself. : (
Read a blog that talked about the matrix and the boy who was bending the spoon and what he said was you must not bend the spoon that is impossible you must realize there is NO SPOON. maybe what I need to realize is there is no THERE or getting THERE it is here and now. Ok I gronk that and therefore a there to get to is a there a reason to bother. Without a there does hope exist? What if this is it what if today is all there is? Maybe I am just tired.
I am overwhelmed again with spring like always the sloth of the winter brings the necessity of working in the spring. Garden, decks house horses; and the ever existent weight loss program the endless knee problems UCK I am not a happy camper today