Thursday, April 25, 2013
I’ll admit it—I’ve been in a grumpy funky mood. I have a lot on my plate and I’m overwhelmed by the thought of training for a half marathon that I don’t have any idea how to finish.
So this morning, when a coworker didn’t respond to my “good morning,” then proceeded to hit me with her large bag, leaving a bruise on my arm, and slammed her office door in my face, I was annoyed and hurt. And I told her so in an email.
As it turns out, she was having a tough morning, and had spilled coffee on herself, had to go back home, and had had a difficult doctor’s appointment yesterday. Like me, she has a medical condition that leaves her in constant pain, that to date doctors have not been able to treat. She ended up coming to my office, in tears, to apologize. I ended up in tears too.
I FEEL TERRIBLE!
One of my favorite quotes is “Be kinder than necessary for everyone is fighting some kind of battle.” I did not follow those very wise words today. I am very disappointed in myself because I know better.
I get the skeptical glances from people because even though I don’t appear sick on the outside, I’m in pain…always. Most days I can hide it by smiling more than I want and focusing on other things, like exercise even though it hurts. Some days are worse than others. So I know better…
It is never, ever okay for me to get angry at someone until I know the whole situation. Maybe the person in the car that cut me off or is tailgating me is in a hurry to get to the hospital to see a loved one who just became ill. There is always more to the story than meets the eye.
I will strive to be a nicer person and live by the words of that quote. I will work harder to spread kindness.