I don't know how to deal with this.
Thursday, April 25, 2013
My leg is injured again, every bit as bad as the first time. I can't put any weight on it at all without serious pain.
The worst is I didn't even DO anything to it. I went for a freaking half hour walk last night during my son's baseball game, and started feeling the pain after that. But nothing at all while I was walking. Nothing during the previous day's run. Nothing while running in Sunday's race. Nothing while just doing my normal daily things, chasing the kid around the backyard, jogging up the steps, or whatever. Nothing! No warning signs, no way to back off and minimize the damage and one stupid walk and I'm flat on my butt again for who knows how long.
I really thought it was pretty much better. This is just killing me.
I couldn't sleep last night, and I'm sitting here this morning doing absolutely nothing, can't think, can't move, can't do ANYTHING. It seems like every time I'm feeling great about my body, I get sabotaged again, and I'm so scared about winding up back at square one with my fitness. I have worked so hard for it, and it doesn't even matter. Right now I can't even swim -- couldn't get myself the hundred yards from the parking lot to the pool. Can't walk, can't run, can't ride my bike, can't even do the squats I hate so much, and I have no idea when that will change. Ice and aspirin aren't doing anything.
I'm feeling terrible and completely at a loss here. I have a doctor appointment at 2, but don't expect any answers.