aprils almost over already? here goes nothing
Thursday, April 25, 2013
There is one good thing I found out today out of all this depression I threw myself into... Is that i did not gain every bit of weight back. I really felt like I did. I am a hair just under 300, which is technically in the 200's lol. Whatever helps right? The past few months I have dont nothing but hinder myself, stir up cravings, help others, gain weight, and be scared to see how much damage I did to myself.
So, what do I decide to do? I wake up motivated and ready the day-the same day that my 4 year old is sick, and Its that time of month, lolol, and I am pretty achy and hungry, andblah blah blah I DONT CARE. I am ready! That is the spirit I missed, ready to challenge something, and this is it.
I am a beautiful, strong, intelligent, intellectual girl who is letting food control her. wow thats pitiful. haha
Have a great day spark friends, thank you for reading. Time to stay focused. Im gonna do this.