Thursday, April 25, 2013
I just stole this hopeful saying from another sparker, and it is the mantra for my new focus and faith. Beating the MORE Monster, and finding faith in myself . Trusting that I will not gain back all of the weight I worked so hard to take off of my tiny bones. Faith in the journey I am navigating towards health and fitness. Hope in my future, and cleaning out the emotional garbage that has contributed to my obsessive eating. I have hung on to sparkpeople with desperate hands, trolling the blogs and collecting nuggets of hope, faith, and growth until I can stand on my own. Tonight, I finally feel like I am standing tall and proud. I will be the master of the MORE Monster. I have named it.... Well, another sparker named it for me... But, I have named mine, claimed it as my own, and I will master it. I am the Alpha Female in this body I live in. My body, my rules. I got knocked down. I have been trying to get back up, again. I finally believe I am back up. Perseverance . A good word, and one I will also make my own. Thank you, sp, for being there when I was lost and losing the focus on health.... Wallowing in old, fat habits. I am standing up, and seeing my old, new habits of health and leanness. My habits are calling me. I am glad they didn't get crushed under the weight gain I have allowed since New Years.