I wanted to wait until I had a week under my belt of getting the job done, BUT since my blogs have been nothing but down right depressing lately, I wanted to share my joy with all of you!
My mom wants to lose maybe 15-20 pounds, and has wanted to for a while. I asked her if she would try with me to eat around 1500 calories a day. She is not one that would track her food, but I even told her I could kind of add it up and stuff, and she tells me what she eats. So far it is working. Today is day 5, and weigh in this morning had me down 3 pounds. I understand it is water and blah, blah, blah, but that is 3 pounds that I am not lugging around. I am also prepared for the "easy weight loss" to stop soon, I know I won't be dropping 3 pounds in 4 days forever, and that it will slow to a consistent, slow loss soon. But it was the push I needed and the reassurance that what I am doing is right.
I have pretty just gone back to the "everything in moderation" thing, and it has involved processed foods. It does work and I can lose weight doing this... however I do enjoy how I feel physically when I am eating better foods. I have made a conscious effort to add in more veggies, and get back to that. I just needed it to be baby steps. The idea of going from eating nothing but fast food to eating completely healthy was too much for me. So I have literally crawled in the right direction, and am now ready to really get back to it.
I can not take this dreaded feeling of "starting again"... I know it's not starting OVER, even with the regain I had still been doing this a year, still have lost 50 pounds, and I knew how to do it. I wasn't starting over from square one, but I basically took a time out by choosing to eat the way I was, and now the time out is over and it's time to get back to business. So I know in the future "time outs" are not for me, because the idea of starting again is just too daunting... eek!
Thanks to everyone for the love and support, it would have been so easy to run and hide from Spark, which is what I used to do when I'd start gaining weight. But this time I reached out and I got so much love and support that I just couldn't give up, and for that I thank you guys so much!