Wednesday, April 24, 2013
I don't know what's into me today. I think the depression is trying to sneak back, since I haven't been exercising.
I did do my standing desk most of the day today; after 1 I had to move to the living room, though.
Today I'm feeling defeated. My eating plan has derailed entirely, and I'm going over my ranges most days. I even gained some of my weight back (just a couple of pounds, but definitely not the way I want the numbers to be going.)
I'm just not feeling good today. I started out pretty well, but my husband's been a constant drag right now. He's been in a funk, and I'm sick of it.
I don't want to deal with his depression anymore, but I really don't have a choice. Maybe it's cold of me, and I know he can't just snap out of it (god, don't I know it. I deal with it too.) But selfishly, I want him to anyway. I'm tired of the constant hovering, of him doing nothing all the time, of just everything.
I don't know what to do. I don't think I can do anything, really.
Maybe I'll go for a walk.