Wednesday, April 24, 2013
Still having some trouble with overeating, but I am happy to report that I did not binge Monday or Tuesday, and am aiming for yet another binge-free day today. I'm feeling a little vulnerable right now so I'm checking in here...
I did end up overeating again today, but usually that's a sign that I need to take a step back and make sure I'm not going on autopilot. Someday I'll be able to catch it earlier, but for now, I'm glad that I caught it before turning it into a binge, and that I was able to not give in to the urge to binge.
I've been super busy lately and haven't really had time to visit since my last blog entry, but I've been trying to work hard at work and school. I can tell I'm getting a bit stressed and nervous about my meeting with my advisor tomorrow, as usually happens. If just keep working today I think I will get enough done to feel a little better.
+ I went to a conference on Sunday and found out about a neat summer internship program from one of the speakers there. I got in contact with her and am going to inquire about applying. I really hope I'm not too late for this summer's program, although I suspect I will be.
+ I'm trying really hard not to be judgemental of myself (I still do this automatically and don't even notice it half the time) and working on letting things "be ok".
+ I felt really relieved when a friend who I started to feel was ignoring me or was mad at me for some unknown reason contacted me and told me why she hadn't responded in a while. Fortunately she isn't mad at me, but was trying to respect someone else's wishes about not saying anything about a situation. I think it's ok since I have no idea who her other friend is and would have no reason to talk about it anyway.
+ I've been splurging and buying sushi for lunch, which is expensive, but I love it and it helps me to be more mindful since I really savor it. I guess in that sense I'll consider the extra cost ok.
Ok that's it for now, just wanted to check in here... Now back to work!