Still Hanging by a Toenail
Wednesday, April 24, 2013
I'm still hanging in there. I have increased my protein by an ounce or 2 a day to keep from killing and eating my young (teenagers are kinda fatty and somewhat stringy).
THE GOOD STUFF: I have acquired an extreme like for water! I used to tolderate water and drink mostly diet soda and coffee. Now I have about 1/2 cup coffee in the morning and then all water. Soda and flavored waters don't even taste good to me anymore. I have consumed a lot of my veggies raw, so the cleansing effect has been good. I no longer have gas and my skin is clear. My blood sugar is stable and my blood pressure is normal.
THE NOT-SO-GOOD STUFF: I am losing weight, but nowhere near what I thought or was led to believe I would lose. You would think that on 500 calories the weight would fall off. But, NOOOO, not my body. It is creeping off and I have even gained a couple of times! It is SO disheartening. I'm down 10 pounds in 2-1/2 weeks. I guess thats ok... but its not a pound a day! I'm also very grumpy. I guess 500 calories a day would make anyone grumpy. Its not the hunger that's making me grumpy.... I'm just really edgy and sort of anxious. Dry skin is also an issue... I'm crispy and itchy! I have days of fatigue intermittently. Some days are ok and others I can hardly make it up the stairs to my office! My doc gives B-complex shots weekly to help counter the fatigue, but I can't tell any real difference. There is also associated intermittent "tummy trouble". Some days are normal and others are pretty uncomfortable!
Even though I'm in the midst of this, and am dedicated to finishing my 40 days, I would NOT recommend this to anyone. I can't tell that the HCG shots help with appetite at all... honestly. I'm still hungry.... maybe not ravenous, but hungry nonetheless. I don't think that hunger has anything (or much) to do with my eating. I just like to eat. Food tastes good and I want it. Survival isn't even an issue! I can eat salad and grilled chicken until I'm near explosion and STILL drool over chocolate. I don't eat because I'm hungry; I eat because there is food that I like in the area.... "area" meaning on the same planet.
My ultimate suggestion... more like a plea, actually... would be that you follow a reasonable diet and find a support group and learn WHY you are eating. Drastic measures and crash dieting really don't work long-term if there has been no heart change or no behavior modification. I keep hoping that I will wake up one day with my father's metabolism and be able to eat my weight in potatoes and never gain an ounce. Until that day comes I'll keep struggling with the behaviors that make me eat and try to stay away from potatoes just for today!