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Starting Over....Yet Again

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Wednesday, April 24, 2013

Ugh...well, wouldn't you know it? The DAY after my last blog entry (you know...the one where I was super thrilled because I was two weeks into my half marathon training plan and so proud of myself for making it happen?) Yeah...that one. THE NEXT DAY...that little pain in my shin that I mentioned turned into a much bigger pain. A friend messaged after reading my blog and cautioned that the symptoms I described could possibly be a stress fracture, which can take months to heal. So, I immediately made an ortho appointment and got an MRI. As it turns out, I did NOT have a stress fracture....BUT there are levels of impact injuries that come BEFORE a stress fracture and I guess I was just one more level away from it becoming one. Sad face. No race.

But, I thought on the situation and I knew I couldn't skip the race entirely. My childhood best friend, who I have not seen in 22 years, and I have re-connected on Facebook and she is flying out for 4 days to hang out with me and run the Indy Mini. I couldn't just leave her to fend for herself! So, even though I couldn't run, I signed up to be a Race Volunteer and pass out pretzels and fruit at the finish line. I'm actually VERY excited about this development because I have never been on the volunteer side of things before. But, I tell you what...a runner sure does appreciate every single one of those volunteers during a race. I am ecstatic to be able to see every single one of my friends finish and to help hungry runners feel satisfied after a fun/exciting/difficult/painful
/perfect/record-setting race.

Truthfully, without running, I have been floundering. I took quite a bit of time just contemplating what I am going to do with all these injuries. It seems all of them have been brought about by my obesity and extra weight putting too much repetitive pressure on my bones and joints in my knees, shins and ankles. My ortho says I could correct a lot of it with proper running form and technique...and I have no doubt this is true. However, I've had to take a step back and re-evaluate my entire view of training and racing, Especially in light of my issues with time (or lack thereof).

I have come to a decision that might disappoint some...but it just feels right to me. I am stepping away from long distance running for awhile. Half marathon is not my distance right now. I'm going to focus on swimming, weight training and shorter races (10k being the longest I run...but mostly sticking to 5k). How long??? Well, until I am able to get rid of some more of this weight. I would like to lose about 30 lbs or more before I focus on long distances again. I really think it would make things much easier on my body and on my bones. And I will feel less disappointed in myself if I set more realistic goals for myself. With shorter distances (and swimming just for the fun of it), I feel like I would still have incentive to train, but not feel like I need to be so hardcore all the time. I need to make my workouts a regular routine fun part of my life, get my diet in order and get on the right track weight-wise before I plan any really difficult races.

As for the diet, that has slipped over the past few months...VERY BADLY. In fact, I will openly admit I've gained back 10 lbs. Ugh! But I am hoping to reverse this with the coming of Spring/Summer and weekly trips to the Farmer's Market. I also admitted to the fact that I need help with this area. I am the WORST when it comes to stopping for fast food or eating at restaurants when I don't feel like cooking. It's even worse now that I have weeks where I'm single. It isn't good for my budget, but I rationalize by saying, "I'm just one person. How expensive can it be to eat out by myself?" No more.

I found a Groupon for a site called eMeals.com. I guess it's pretty popular and Oprah has featured it on her show. The Groupon was $29 for 12 MONTHS of meal plans and grocery lists. That is 7 dinners per week planned out for you with recipes and a shopping list. That is PERFECT for me, a very busy single mom who works full-time. There are several plans you can choose from and I selected "Natural & Organic". I am going to take advantage of my Farmer's Market and my local co-op grocery membership. I am starting this week and I can't wait. It seems like a no-brainer, easy way for me to assure that at least ONE key meal per day is going to be healthy and good for me.

I have to believe that if I can find an exercise schedule that works and that I can replicate, and if I can stick to my meal plans, things are going to start moving in the right direction with my weight. I don't care how long it takes...I'm on this journey for life. I'm all about changing my habits right now...and actually making them habits. Eating for freshness and taste and exercising for fun, stress relief and enjoyment. And, really...if I never lose another ounce of weight, isn't that still a pretty great plan? Yeah...I think so too.
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  • v MONTREAL12
    Its a disappointment, I know - however, you did volunteer - therefore, you kept your commitment to the extent that you could. You were also smart enough to rest; before developing a serious injury. Now you're back! Good luck! It's nice to read your blog again. emoticon and emoticon
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  • v EATVEGAN
    Have you thought of jumping rope? Not while you're healing, but afterward. I don't know how it can be, but I have heard it described as low impact, and it is supposed to help rebuild cartilage and increase bone strength. Congratulations on taking a realistic look at yourself and making adjustments to your situation. Sounds like you still have a winning attitude. emoticon
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  • v EBURGITE
    good on you for making a decision to be gentle with yourself. hope things are going well.
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  • v PUDU1009
    Your determination is truly inspiring. Good for you and all your hard work, and especially for getting creative about supporting your friend and the other racers.
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  • v JMARIES51
    Leah, so sorry to hear about the injuries, but it is important to take care of yourself. You are still young and at my age (62) I am seeing all the people needing joint replacements because of the injuries they received when they were young bucks.
    And great that you are finding new ways to manage that single Mom thing. I also raised 3 kids by myself, most of the time, and it is not an easy job. So kudos to you and hope you are enjoying the Farmers market!
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  • v MJLUVSANIMALS
    Losing the weight should be # one choice. Mainly to get the pressure off the joints. I would like to enter a 5k or 10k but I want the weight gone first. It's not that much to lose, but enough to stress joints and cause stress fractures. Then I would concentrate on preparing for a race, or more rigorous form of exercise. Right now I walk. The Doctor stress's walking is the safest form of exercise, and it preps you for other more aerobic and deep impact exercises. So hang in, and don't disappoint others, it's not their body. Take care of yourself and worry about what you want, not someone else. Everybody's different.
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  • v HONEYCART07
    Good for you that is the most important thing that you see. You have to do what you feel is best for you. You are the only one that is in your body and know what it can and can't handle. Congrats on seeing what you need to do and making the changes. It is very exciting when you begin to find plans and strategies that really work for you. Good Luck on your journey and never give up! You will get there!
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  • v SHEL_V2
    I've been so impressed and inspired by how hard you work on the fitness side, and with all the injuries you've endured, I'm happy to see what happens now that you're dialing back on the running. Those races are specific goals and very powerful, but it becomes easy to overlook other information.

    I've worked out more gently for the last year, and I've had my own set-backs, but now that I'm about 20 pounds from my goal I'm picking up the pace and intensity. Of course, I beat myself up "if I was as focused as that Leah chick, I'd be running half marathons!".

    I can highly recommend roasting veggies to add a new twist and outlook to your diet. I've made very few recipes from the Veganomicon, but I use their chapter on cooking veggies all the time. Use the nights you aren't feeding your kids to experiment with great food. Lately I've been on a new dietary track, and hubby and the son get sent to fetch themselves Subway or something a few times a week when I know I can't meet everyone's desires. They've become really picky eaters and I'm done letting it make it impossible for me to cook us all dinner.
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  • v CM_GARDNER78
    Awesome!! I'm glad you were able to come up with a plan B...although it may be disappointing to not be able to run the distance right now. I love that you turned a negative into such a positive and are volunteering!! That is awesome. Great job! You will do awesome with the new meal plans!! I just know it! :-)
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  • v GOULDSGRANITE
    Great plans - You are awesome. I am excited for you to start with your new healthy food! Woo Hoo! emoticon
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  • v DMANN104
    Love this comment "Eating for freshness and taste and exercising for fun, stress relief and enjoyment. And, really...if I never lose another ounce of weight, isn't that still a pretty great plan? Yeah...I think so too. " That is exactly what I am working toward too. Way to go with all that you have accomplished so far.
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  • v AMBER281
    Sorry to hear about your injury but glad you found out before you did real damage.
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  • v PATTISTAMPS
    Glad to see you, and sorry about the injuries. I know them well. I WANT to run, but this 60 year old 60 pounds overweight body says NFW... So I don't. Keep in mind that an exercise program does NOT have to be the same every week. When you have the kids, it can be totally different - riding bikes with them or going for a walk or a hike, versus getting to the gym. I believe you will still get fit as long as you are doing SOMETHING! As for the eating alone.. yes, that one is hard. I hate cooking for myself when I am alone, and will do something bad, like a pint of ice cream and a spoon... but I have never been a fast food person (thankfully!) so that does not tempt me. But your plan is a good plan, and yes, if you don't lose more weight, it is ok. Life goes on regardless! But active playing with your kids... might help them stay slim and fit for life, and that's worth it!!!

    PS, I forgot things like bowling, dancing, badmitton, etc...
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    Comment edited on: 4/30/2013 2:40:13 PM
  • v AMBER461
    Sound lik a good plan. You can do it.
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    that you have a Plan B


    Hope you had a Super Sunday
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    ! PEACE, LOVE and BLESSINGS !

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  • v KRYSTALLA
    emoticon Take things slow and steady, you can do this. Let yourself heal properly before you go back to the big races. There is nothing wrong with having to slow down a bit if you need to do so. So don't be ashamed about it, you gotta do what is right for you and you are the only one who can determine that.

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  • v NILLAPEPSI
    emoticon Do what you have to do to get better. Setbacks totally stink!! Grrr! emoticon
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  • v SUSIEMT
    There is nothing wrong with starting over. This is the way we learn! Kep up the good work! You can do this!
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  • v JKELLEY1107
    I am inspired by how you don't let anything keep you down. You plow through obstacles with an impressive, positive attitude. Way to go!
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  • v SLIMLEAF
    That sounds a good plan, Leah.

    I too have been unable to run for the past few months due to injury - I broke my ankle whilst out running at the end of January, and it's taking an age to heal. I still can't drive the car and am not meant to walk outside for more than 5 minutes!

    So I do sympathise - and with the weight gain too. :-(

    But you're quite right, we're not giving up, we CAN do this and, what's more, we WILL!

    God bless
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  • v JACKIE542
    I like your new plan, sometimes we have to change things. emoticon
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  • v AWOOD1973
    Whether you feel like you will be disappointing anyone, or not, this journey is yours. We are all just "supporters" on your journey! Way to go, listening to your body and not pushing it to the point of being laid out, from injury! We are all rooting for you! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
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    Comment edited on: 4/26/2013 6:05:55 AM
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    Keep up the inspiration you share with us!
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  • v MARYJEANSL
    Sounds like a good plan.
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  • v ILIKETOZUMBA
    I'm sorry to hear about your injury, but I think your current plan sounds great! Good food, and good exercise goals. To be perfectly honest, I always thought you were pushing yourself much too hard, too fast when it came to the distance running. I can only speak from my own experience, but it took me a VERY long time to work up to even 4 or 5 miles, and here you were, relatively new to running, shooting for 10ks and half marathons and so on! I was happy you were going for it, but I did kind of wonder how you would manage! I'm glad you're taking it a bit slower now. Which is not the same as easier or lazier! Just slower and healthier. Ain't nothing wrong with that. :)

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  • v KIPPER15
    Glad to see you back. Hope you can get in your swimming time. It is a great exercise. I am going to look into the emeals. Sounds very interesting. emoticon
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  • v JENSAWIP
    Good work, listening to your body. About eMeals, I use that for my family because I would spend so much time planning meals every week. If Natural & Organic doesn't end up working for you, bear in mind that they let you switch plans every month or so, so you can try different ones. I just switched to the Vegetarian plan & I just add side meat on days that I feel like having meat. Some of their meals seem a little odd when you're putting them together, but I've honestly only had 1 or 2 meals that I thought weren't good.
    Good luck!
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  • v LIVELYGIRL2
    Leah, Good to hear from you again! About time. : ))

    I think your plans to adapt your exercise and do this new food plan will be more interesting and helpful to where you are right now.

    I would think your living situation is an adjustment.In the long run, hopefully, you will have the time and ability to heal and get stronger. emoticon emoticon
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  • v JIBBIE49
    Great seeing your blog featured in the Spark Mail.
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    Sounds like a great plan to me. emoticon
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  • v ABUFFKIN
    Sometimes we have to move to plan B even when we don't want to, but the most important thing is that you didn't give up!! Way to go for just adjusting your goals to meet your life. Keep on keeping on!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
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  • v SJKENT1
    Sounds like a great plan for you and your health. And now swimming? Isn't that a hoot! Awesome.
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